this is what i know about love ( Read more... )

apparently lack of sleep (and no, not for a good reason) makes us both feisty as shit ( Read more... )

how the fuck did i get suckered into working a 14hr day doing manual labor? on my day off?

oh yeah, i'm a whore for money.

and right now i need more of it than i care to think about.

so if claire is awake (answer your frickin' phone) i'm gonna go make bank.

and i'm hyper as hell.

this old broad needs more sleep.

I spent all day helping a friend demo an old music room in order to move the stuff to her house to build her grrl a new music room. I have never seen so much wood glue used on a place. Now I'm exhausted. But energized at the same time ( Read more... )

Holy shit. She drove all the way out to see me at work last night.

It might just be about the sex. But I don't think so.

No *one* would drive all the way out there just to say hi.

Then again, it may have something to do with my uniform! ;)

i just spent 3 days at work. and now i'm wandering the city on foot. i don't do that often enough. relying on one of my vehicles to speed me from point a to point b. really it has more to do with the hectic pace i live my life. one appointment to the next. never a moment to just sit and relax ( Read more... )

I really thought I was doing better. And maybe I was. Until I wasn't. But I am. It's just not noticale all the time.

I miss her. I miss all the stupid little things. And then I miss all the big deal stuff too.

But I can't have her. Because she won't stay.

I'm coming to realize that I am not strong enough to do the poly thing. Maybe I never was and it took us this long to figure it out. In plain black and white, it was my jealousy that tore us apart. The 'us' that I thought was a forever thing. The 'us' that I counted on. My insecurities and needs and wants were too much, are too much ( Read more... )

What I think about most are the plans we had together. The short term ones; going to see ‘the babies’, taking her for her long awaited tattoo, parties and concerts. The long term plan of a life and retiring together ( Read more... )

i asked someone the other day, will we ever go back to normal again ( Read more... )