For some reason I haven't felt as lonely as I do right now in a very long time, if ever. What the fuck is up with this?

GAH how can she be so nonchalant?!

Hey, what are people doing tomorrow?

Does anyone want to try and see Kansas with me?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

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Tonight was nice, even though I started out and am ending it emo. Hung out with Chrissy and Katie and Greg for a sec and Bobby and Michael. We dinered and tried to go see a movie, but failed with the movie. We went to a park and back to my place to watch movies, but Superman Returns started skipping around two thirds in so that was that ( Read more... )

I just had a dream that I was fighting in a battle on a beach. A child handed me some kind of strange weapon, which I had no idea how to use. It was a pair of copper rods with grounded handles that had something to do with lightning, but I had little time to figure it out so I was just using them to block swords. This went on for a bit, when I was ( Read more... )

This is shaping up to be a very unhappy summer. Maybe I'll have fun at chrissy's. I'm a moron though, I perpetuate my own misery. This past year killed my ability to trust. I wonder if it will come back or not. My faith is either grim acceptance or somber understanding, my faith in people is dead and buried ( Read more... )

I need to clear my head, so for the next couple weeks I'll prolly be bouncing from outgoing to hermit and back. We'll see

I can't take this place anymore, I don't know how I'm going to make it through this summer. I have this sinking feeling everything is about to fall away again. I don't know if I can survive it. The last time I had a place to turn, somewhere to fall. There's nowhere like that now, I'm on a tightrope with no net. I remember what falling is like, with ( Read more... )

Tonight is not a good idea

2:51AM: PA still knows just how to change my mood around ^.^

I felt great Saturday afternoon. My parents went to visit my grandma and I was gonna get to see people and bullshit around in a pool for i think the first time this summer. My grandma died saturday night, I had the feeling i should go see her this time. The last thing pappa ever said to me was "Take care of grandma." And this is what, emotionally, ( Read more... )