what do you do when a person in your life is putting themselves in danger, destroying the future.  what do you do when this person does not or refuses to recognize the dangers they consistantly put themselves in.  is it wrong to hold standards that will help them?  is it wrong to want to point out their wrong doing in hopes that they will recognize ( Read more... )

i wish that justin and jackie would help me get a tree. and i want to wrap empty boxes and pretend that they're gifts and put them there tonight. and i don't want too much on the tree...maybe like a few things of lights and the light up star and some ornaments. and i want to find the box of stockings and put the coal in justins and put socks in the ( Read more... )

I know winter break is coming, and I can't wait to be done stressing over classes and playing and stuff like that...but the more I think about it the more I realize it's not really a break.  As discussed in a previous entry I want to test for my next degree black belt.  If I didn't update you guys I'm testing in late January.  Over winter break I' ( Read more... )

I thought I'd try a more Chrystine approach to this entry.

Is it fun to gain sympathy

To pretend in hopes of empathy

Lose track of who you are

Just a glimpse, now so far

Found track of everyone’s evil

Pure pleasure grasps your heart

One track breaking you apart

Selfish evil makes you smile

Selfless love makes me rile

Simple yet complex hatred fills my soul

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Ok so I think a lot about music and martial arts, you know since they're both kinda my profession.  And I'm not exactly excited about the changes my karate school is in the process of making.  We kept having arguments over some students going to belt tests and stuff like that, because we only really want to send them when they're ready.  We don't ( Read more... )

You know, some people love buffer zones.  You get to just breath for a second and take in that neutral feeling.  For a while there's no problems and you're not desperately trying to think of a solution.  But guess what, if you wait long enough in the middle a side will catch up with you.  So you gotta get some guts before you get stabbed in the ( Read more... )

I feel like everyone is having a mid-life crisis and is trying to start a new life and change their occupation....but then i realize that we never even started our occupation.  it's more like a pre mid-life crisis.  I don't get it.  I don't get it because it's not me lol.  Or at least I don't think I'm in a crisis.  But I was thinking about it and ( Read more... )

I'm kinda really upset about the Nathan's Famous hotdog eating qualifier.  Last year was the first year me and Justin went to a qualifier to see competitive eatting, it was the first and only time we've seen it live.  Last year we found the information all on the Nathan's website with a list of locations, the closest being where we went (the Molly ( Read more... )

 Know what I've always wondered....Why doesn't mario do his job??  I mean, I've never heard of a game like Mario teaches plumbing.  There's mario teaches typing (which he's unqualified to do) and mario golf, mario tennis, mario kart...name a sport, he can totally do it somehow.  Meanwhile he's sitting on the floor of some poor persons kitchen drunk ( Read more... )

 So the weekend was pretty busy, but overall fun.  Friday night was breakfast at chrystine's and even though I don't partake in drinking it was still fun hanging with brian.  I basically watched breakfast at tiffany's, not that I could hear it but it doesn't matter, i guess it tests my script memory hahaha.  Chrys got my chips and apple cider and ( Read more... )