so in the last two weeks ive definitely made some changes. i got rid of some shit that was just not working out. and found out some amazing news, that even though is a bit of a shocker...is still amazing.im done with school in may. and off to grad school in the fall...i have awesome big girl job prospects as soon as i graduate....things are good. ( Read more... )

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im slowly starting to realize im falling apart again. i feel it coming like a strong storm days away from disaster. i think when it comes to school i am really working towards something. i am. and this internship has showed me that i am doing what i need to be doing and i working towards a life that i really want. i love my job. i love everything ( Read more... )

the semester is under way and im sooooooo exhausted. i actually have a day off though. its going to be so nice. i started my internship today. i dont even have the energy to write all about it. but its FUCKIN AWESOME!!!!! i seriously am going to love it. things with anthony are going soooooooo goooooooodddddd!!!!!!! he is absolutely amazing. i have ( Read more... )

so its only been three days into school and im already over it. well its good to have structure and a schedule back, but im just soooo tired. and sore. im glad to be back in the dance studio. i cant wait to sit down this weekend and CLEAN the house and just get everything organized. i have a checklist of mini life organizing goals im tryin to ( Read more... )

of summer is here. well technically i dont start class till tues but its the last day of summer....this summer went by so fast. but i guess when most of it was a drunken blur you dont really see it whiz by you. i had really high hopes for this summer. who knows maybe that was the problem. i put faith into something...someone who i knew deep down i ( Read more... )

so once again i am not in buffalo. but this time its only for a few days. i am in indiana visiting my father. its wierd. its wierd to see his legs paralyzed, all kinds of tubes coming out of him, so skinny and sunken in...but yet hes still my dad. still criticizing everyone and everything around him. even in a hospital with tons of professionals ( Read more... )

how things will never change. alot has happened in the last week or so. i met someone. not john. the night of abbys wedding. someone who i had a crush on for like a year, possibly more, but never pursued it because i was consciously not dating and then afrim and i got together. well, we started hanging out and talking. things are a little wierd. ( Read more... )

katie and i made dinner last night. it was sooooooo good. we had drinks, homemade cheesy artichoke dip, tortellini, gnocchi with homemade sauce, five cheese garlic bread, AND CHEESECAKE!!!!!!!!katie is an amazing cook<3 it was delicious and the company wasnt too shabby either. obviously i am not ready for a relationship but its nice to be hanging ( Read more... )

so abbys wedding was absolutely beautiful. she was soooooo gorgeous. i couldnt be more happy for one of my friends right now. it was so wierd sitting there listening to the preacher talk about love, commitment, marriage and what it truely means...maybe its because of all that has gone on in the last few months, how i feel about respect and love... ( Read more... )