I have so much going on at once. I have enough trouble thinking straight when I have nothing to do ... this is bad. I have spring cleaning fever and being spastic I can't focus on just one project. I couldn't sleep at all last night. My adrenalin was pumping because I am excited about so many things.

I am also so much closer to starting my website. ( Read more... )

I found out some more disconcerting news on Thursday. My (very soon to be ex) husband had betrayed me more than I could have ever imagined. I found out Dean is definitely giving him bad advice and help. I found out I am continually lied to and he is playing games with me... though I'm not quite sure WHY. I have co operated with Julz in everything. ( Read more... )

We went to Gatorland yesterday and I haven't had that much fun in a long time. I loooooooooooooooooooooove animals so I felt like I was in heaven. One of my dearest friends works there and we not only got to watch him perform but we were able to have encounters we normally wouldn't have been able to do. I got to hold a baby gator, sit on the back ( Read more... )

I didn't get tix to the Ellen DeGeneres Show at Universal. Good gawd they took long enough to let me know. The taping is this Friday. I did get an invite to a block party she is having at City Walk with live music and stuff. I may hit that.

I'm gonna work hard on getting everything finished for my site. I am scared to death...lol. Why am I such a ( Read more... )

I've been fighting a stomach bug since Thursday. Of course my daughter also had it and got over it quickly. My body loves to torture me. I'm glad she got over it so fast because she had a busy weekend with her dad. He picked them up Thursday night so they could go to their grandfather’s burial of his ashes in Bushnell. Then on Saturday they headed ( Read more... )

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I was reading over a poem I wrote a couple of years back and was wondering if I should flip flop the last couple of lines. This is how it reads now...

Dark Days

This poem is the dark side of my battle with cancer.

Bright days turned to darkness
Dreams unfulfilled
Slicing my beauty
Taking my soul
Poison running through
Making me weak
Scanning, cutting, ( Read more... )

As I said in my last entry I am still having trouble letting go of the past, but things between me and my husband were good. He made me feel like he had realized all he lost and was trying to change for the good. He was strong in the beginning of the separation about seeing his kids and getting time with them. He would take them to do fun things on ( Read more... )

I haven't been posting in here for fear I would say something and it be taken out of context the way pretty much everything I have said in past years has been. My husband had a way of twisting things to where I stayed confused about my own actions. I found it better to just keep to myself and hide. I've done it for so long now I have almost ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've updated. My life has done a complete 180. I'm happier than I have been in years... but in the last week or so I have been fighting depression again. My health has not been good and my body is not as strong as it used to be. So many years on the meds to keep the cancer in remission is taking it's toll ( Read more... )