why is it that i find myself reading an old friend's journal and starting to cry? so here i am, crying over things that i told myself i didn't care about anymore. it's not that i want to see them suffer. it's that i want them to understand. i just don't see why i can't stop crying. why i can't stop feeling for these people. i never knew that all ( Read more... )

we had our first birthing class on tuesday and it was actually fun! so now we get to do deep breathing exercises where Dan says, "You're having a contraction!" and we sit there and i breathe so my tummy expands for a couple of minutes. i also get to have massages and stuff so i can decide what will work best for me during labor. but it made me like ( Read more... )

happy happy happy happy happy happy BIRTHDAY! YAY JILLY! YOU'RE FINALLY EIGHTEEN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

it's getting closer and closer. im almost seven months pregnant. only a little over two months until the date my baby is due. and less than a month until we move and i get to start on the nursery ( Read more... )

so a month and two days until we move into our new apartment...YES! im so fucking excited. hey, that means that it's a month minus a day until im done with school for awhile! bitchin. ive decided that i need to start using that word again. bitchin. because i feel all badass and it reminds me of that song bitchin camaro and that song makes me all ( Read more... )

so we're moving into our new apartment on May 13th. im so excited and im geting really anxious because i just want to start on the nursery! damn that whole nesting instinct thing. im also excited because we'll get to have a full size bathroom and i bought all sorts of new stuff to redesign it and it's going to look so kickass! jesus im such a ( Read more... )

today is Daniel's birthday. and he is a very sick boy. and this makes me sad ( Read more... )

it just seems like everyone stopped writing. what the hell happened ( Read more... )

Dan got to feel the baby kick for the first time last night! she was flipping around for awhile and really kicking hard, so he finally got to feel her moving! so im thinking that i need to start planning a baby shower. or make someone throw me one. i don't know. but i have a guest list already made out so if you want to throw me a baby shower e- ( Read more... )

it's a girl!