well today is all good now, he woke up for work and we both apoligized and kissed and huggged, and now things are fine, crazy how that works... but thank God! Sara, Linsy, and Josey are comming up to hang out with me today, should be fun, im excited!

ok so i haven't written in a while... things are going really good though... the summer is flying by and im excited about that cuz i can't wait to get home (0: Chris and i have been doing great its nice to not have to stress about our purity right now, plus we get to talk everynight and have been doing devotions together regularly, its really cool ( Read more... )

ok well camp is cool... the drive was pretty good... you know i always bring conflict wherever i go, josey and i got into it a little bit, but we got over it... hmm we got to see the Bartletts. that was encouraging... Wow someone popped all my tires b/f i left... that confused me, what in the world... i really don't want to flatter myself thinking ( Read more... )

so things are going really good lately... it seems everytime im upset Chris can tell and he won't let it alone until i tell him whats bothering me, and he is a good listener and than he tries to give me reasurence and clear up any confusion... i feel really close to him right now and im so thankful. I love him alot and its gonna be really stange ( Read more... )

grrr... awww, i get all this pent up anger inside of me and i feel i will explode, i want to crush something... i don't know how to handle my feelings... im in anguish... why do we have to fight over the stupidest things, so ridiculous, can we not see eye to eye on anything and yet i will still desire to kiss him and i don't want to let him go... ( Read more... )

lets see... life is going... going ok... i too make bad decisions at times... even though i know its the wrong thing to do, i still do it... thats something i guess that we all struggle with... most days hopefully doing well with it... somedays i just need Gods grace and i must humble myself, repent, and move on... hoping not to fall again... but ( Read more... )

hmm we talked... it was cute b/c he really missed me, that made me happy... he tried calling me 2x and text messaging me, cuz he said technically it had been 3 days... but i didn't think so... than he called me on his brother in laws phone and i answered that one...lol... o well, im flaughtered he cared that much. He is really cute, he did seek ( Read more... )

i have alot going through my mind lately. Chris and i really stuggled in the purity area the past week... we screwed up yeah not sex but not definetly not pure. Now we are taking a break not talking for 3 days... thats the consiquence we came up with for our actions... Tryin to seek God with all my heart and find what he wants of me... i want his ( Read more... )

so wednesday chris and i actually ended up going to eat and than started on our way to thrift stores and i got pulled over and got a ticket for goin 79 in a 65... 160 sum bucks... don't speed its not worth it... i know i deserved it... ugh, o well... God still blesses me, got a bonus for 60 sum this week... and mom bought me 50 bucks worth of food ( Read more... )

so lets see, last night bible study with the girls was better... if i could just get past all the drama, just not have any bitterness or jealousy and when they act in that way to just look past it and see through it to their hurting hearts.. yeah i wish i could see like that... thats how i feel when i don't like any guys i could care less about all ( Read more... )