i don't know what the heck is wrong with me. Ive been unhappy, unsure, insecure, questioning...i had been praying if it was God's will that we not be together that we would break up. But doing that i think ive been pushing him away big time... anytime a little issue arised i'd make a huge deal over it, we got in a fight everyday the past week it ( Read more... )

so lets see, it was good to talk to deanna on the phone the other day, and than Rebecca from camp, that was real nice, and than Faith... it's nice to have friends who can relate to and understand me, it just sucks that they don't live closer ( Read more... )

im donin good... didn't mean to emphazie my problems in the last few entries...

Hmm so today was alright, i sat and stared at the work wondering how necessary it was, would it be more of a hassel to try to organize, just to cause a mess, ending up just everything thrown back in, in a mess, due to running out of time... but i finally started and thought i better do something since we aren't busy... so it got semi organized, but ( Read more... )

How far must i fall, b/f i realize its too late, how low do have have to get b/f i see im lost without you... just one more kiss, anoher touch, am i reaching out for you forgetting about God... am i changing from what ive always been, what ive always stood for, am i choosing this over God... am i taking advantage of or abusing the gift ive been ( Read more... )

right now i need to be cleaning my room... im going to get rid of everthing i don't use/need and give it to another goodwill donation center so they can sort thru it... ahhahaha... i really need to do homework too... im glad i have tommorrow afternoon off too that way what i don't get done today i can do tommorrow... tonight chris his sister jen, ( Read more... )

so lets see, after i wrote the last one, i talked to one of my old friends about the possibilites of breaking up with dude... i guess about every 5 months i get restless or so... o my gosh i went home and talked to josey about its too... than i went on myspace and chris has a girl friend that comments to him and i was overcome by jealousy again... ( Read more... )

so lets see... im doing pretty good... so with chris, what i appreciate most is feeling close to him, i like it when we talk about anything and everything, i like to be held tight by him... but i don't know, sometimes i question it all... i mean people really take being single for granted, you have so much freedom, no one to answer to, you can ( Read more... )

so today yea lets see i worked out than chris and i headed to savannah... i was 15min late to his house, so he was a little upset, had to explain myself, im always just a little late and that frustrates him... what can i say?? but yea than we got a little (tiny little) bit lost, even though i got directions i guess they werent precise enough, he ( Read more... )

so whoo hoo ive been working non stop for the past 9 days and im so happy i finally get a break. Tommorrow Chris and i both have off so we are taking a road trip to Savannah GA, ahahah i hope its fun, i think it will be... he is driving cuz i can't take the rental car out of FL... than tommorrow night we are going to a bible study about purity, ( Read more... )