well its been a long time since i made an entry. Shawn bought me a real journal and i've been using it. so anyway. there's so much going on in my life right now that i feel like i can't handle but i know that i can. first shawn and i are on two diffrent levels i guess. it's so cuz i love her so much and care about her but every time u turn around ( Read more... )

well where should i start.Okay i got the job at walgreen's . everything is going ok. my girl drea got fired that sucks cuz she got me that spot. I moves out! Can you believe it. SHawn and i are no longer living together, sometimes it get hard and i wish that we were still living together but i know that it's for that best. umm...I'm talking to ( Read more... )

what's going on! well today i went to work. and it was a hard day i think this pharmacist don't like cuz she always picking on me. but anyway. i refuse to let her or anyone else get me down i know that GOd blessed me with this job and im going to thank him through the hard times and the rough days! well as far as things at home they are ok. we will ( Read more... )

i got the job!!!!!! hip hip hooray!!! i am so happy that i got the job at walgreens! i was afraid becuz i didn't think i would pass the test but i did! i was a praying sista th is weekend!!! i am so happy that i got this job. now i can do so much more with myself. alot of things i can get for myself and i won't have to penny pinch anymore! this is ( Read more... )

hey what's going on? well for me everything is ok for once. i am in a state right now where i'm just taking things one day at a time. i'm tired of thinking and living negative. it's like i'm stepping out of my "box". i'm beginning to take chances and live life. i'm too old to be sitting in the house all of the time down and depressed. it's time to ( Read more... )

well i feel like my life is in just a million and 5 pieces right now. and i'm trying to put the pieces together but they won't fit! i mean man so much is going on right now and i feel like i can't control it but i have to be the one in control. I'm at a point where i need to find me and i need to hurry up before i loose all of the sanity that i ( Read more... )

Well i am so tired of the drama! I feel like a gabage. It's like everybody i know use me and just dump all of their crap on me!! The only person I can trully say that is there for me is my roomate Shawn. I know that we have hard times, but when it comes down to it she is always there for me. And when push comes to shuve she tell me the truth. Alot ( Read more... )

well were should i start. Okay for the first time in my life i am enjoying being by myself.I'm using this time to basically find myself. for a while now i have been trying to fill a void in my life that is not my responsibility to do. It's like you want some thing and u know it's not good for you. It's like i was trying to be in a life that wasn't ( Read more... )

well what can i say or where should I start. Well i guess that i should by saying that i am single and i actually am coping. because it is hard because i have so much love to give and can't do anyhting about that. bu t u know what i'll be iight i am just trying to take it day by day and not get depressed or upset because it's like i know that i'm ( Read more... )

well, today has been a long day. just sittin here thinking about my life and boy it is krazi. I have alot going on. And I feel so alone so that is really krazi. but i am trying to get it together before i become even more depressed.In alot of was i am not happy and that is all i want. Is to be loved and to give tha tlove back to some one who will ( Read more... )