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So this is my second day of freedom from the Jesus boot camp Salvation Army.I have been getting some much needed r'n'r.I am moving into my new place tomorrow.Time to start looking for work and all of that wonderfull stuff.Actualy it is good.This is my second day out and im already staarting to feel strange from all of my idle time.Idle time can be ( Read more... ) -
third step
The wind was strong against my chest and face.The clouds where just begining to roll in.The thunder was loud.Lightning flashing all around.The red grainy rock felt nice against my hands.Wildlife was abundant.Birds singing and soaring.It was peacefull.It was the perfect place for my prayer.I feel confadent ( Read more... ) -
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Roomate got kicked out for drinking last night.Derek got booted too.Eh,don't really want to talk about that anymore.Kirk you fuckin' bastard.Eh,Im sleepy.Todd kept me up till 1:00 and woke me up at 5:00.Tried to go back to sleep but he came in the room slamin' shit around and I was just to pissed to go back to sleep.I am supposed to hang out with ( Read more... ) -
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So I kept writing.Writing about these feelings that I was having and I learned something about myself.I know that I was scared I was stressed.There was something wrong with me so I started letting things bother me.I got annoyed by everything.Fear of what was going to happen to me after I graduate.Stress is not good for addicts.I was not sure where ( Read more... ) -
Dreamer
I moved rooms last night.I am in the graduation room downstairs.Oh yeah,it sucks.Im next to Todd again.He is like a 50 year old infant.I wouldn't be suprised if he shit his pants on a regular basis ( Read more... ) -
Monday bloody Monday
Monday bloody Monday.Well im very tired.Lonely yet hoepfull and enthusiastic.I don't realy want to talk to anyone right now.Well maybe someone.But eh,Sometimes I confuse myself.It sucks.Sometimes I know what I want and the next minute it seems like im trying to talk myself into something.I realy don't want to go to a meeting tonight.Especialy ( Read more... ) -
Movin' Out Movin' On
originaly writen frokm my lonely bed on some scratch paper ( Read more... ) -
When storms speak
Thank God!What an amaizing week!Realy....Deep relaxing breath...I got to see Leah on thursday.She had some trouble on the way here.Her and her friend Jessica had to go to jail for a few days for getting cought on a train.Eh,fuckin' forbiddin freedoms.I only got to see her for a few hours but that was some of the better few hours I have had in my ( Read more... ) -
I want to be a robot
Man sometimes it sucks to be human.Im stressing.Im confused.Im frustrated.Im scared.I feel silly and small.I know what I want im just scared to persue it.Is it crazy to just ignore the way you feel about a person? I dont fucking know.I don't want to get hurt.I can't afford that right now.On the other hand I don't want to be stuck with all those " ( Read more... ) -
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Ok,lets just say im scared.And I don't like to talk about this shit.Im realy digging someone right now.I try to push it into the back of my head and it wont stay there.I realy like spending time with this person.It is what I look forward to.We are realy good friends and I don't want to screw that up.It is also suggested from my sponsor not to ( Read more... )