uhhhhh right.   well, one could say i had an interesting evening.

found out i was right about something concerning this journal and who reads it...  not that i really care, i think it was for the best. it really made it possible to talk honestly.  the person how that is referring to knows what i am saying.  and i am sure that everyone else knows ( Read more... )

i had a horrible weekend.

and i haven't really talked about this or how i feel about this.  i haven't slept.  i hate the dark now.  all i see is images replaying in my head.  i am terrified of the night.  i had to take a sleeping pill last night to finally get to sleep.  i didn't sleep at all this weekend until it got light out.

it didn't start out ( Read more... )

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

i'm thankful for... God. my family. my friends.  my job.  coffee.  warm weather today (its almost 70! we've had a foot of snow on thanksgiving before. i'll take this weather kthnx.).

haven't updated in awhile. not much to tell.  i haven't seen jesse at all.  though he lives about a mile away.  i like it like that.  i ( Read more... )

yeah hi. my weekend has been alright.  larissa (jesse's little sister) is up from south carolina, so i hung out with her on friday night. we went to the 99 for some food then to the mall, then tried to stalk jeremy because she's in love with him.  we were unsuccessful, thank goodness.  poor jeremy.

saturday brandon came over at like 1, and we went ( Read more... )

so... jesse is back. and i just found out he is living in town. weird. even before, when we were dating, he lived 25 minutes away. now he lives less than a mile away. and i didn't even know. i just got off the phone w/mandie (his cousin, the girl i always hang out with) and she told me ( Read more... )

i still don't have my car back =(   after driving my dad's truck around for 2 days, i know i definitely want to get a car.  trucks are totally hot. for a guy. for me?  a nervous wreck disaster.  i am so paranoid i am going to hit something and its way harder to maneuver than my little corolla.  come on dude put those tires on faster!

so anyways ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in awhile.

jesse is moving back on wednesday. wednesday.  i am still just... shocked.  its going to earth-quakingly terrifying to see him again.  and infinitely weird.  i know we aren't getting back together.  i have already decided for myself that even if he was up for that, i'd be a no-go.  though i would want to.  i mean, its ( Read more... )

so everything is pretty good here.  i don't have much to complain about.  i don't despise my place of work as much.  they offered recompensation in the form of 8 extra vacation hours for that holiday they didn't pay me for.  and i was out on tuesday, so basically, i am getting paid for that sick day.

brandon & i are good.  i don't know where this ( Read more... )

i was so happy coriann told me to update this, i've been looking for an excuse to do so.  see, nothing exciting happens in my life and i don't always feel like boring you all with the mundane details of my mediocre life.  now i have an excuse.

so let's see.  i had a really icky week at work last week.  i don't crack often, and last friday, i just ( Read more... )

friday. thank goodness.

i was so awake this morning, it was weird. popped right out of bed with a smile on my face and got ready and off to work singing songs in the car. it was odd, for me. haaa.  my good mood went away, cuz i ended up being really tired. go figure.  but when i was still on my top-of-the-world mood, i texted jesse. i havent even ( Read more... )