Today was a good day. My friend that I met on myspace took me to the USC/Clemson game. We got in as guests of the Carolina band, so, it was free. We were right next to the band, so, it was loud, but, really energized. I had a great time, even though we lost to the Tigers. Ah, well. And, there was this annoying young couple right in front of ( Read more... )

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so, i broke the silence. i sent ben an email. i don't expect a response, but, there were a few things i needed to say and to get out. i hope that one day i can see through these masks that people wear and be able to see when i'm being used, for lack of a better word. i loved that boy with all my heart, and, i still miss him so much. almost ( Read more... )

So, Robyn introduced me to Rocky Votolato, and, I love this song ( Read more... )

That's how many days I've gone without contacting Ben. I'm so proud of myself, and, I feel a lot better this morning. Still not 100%, but, I'm going to try to take care of that today. I need to do things to feel productive, I know that much. I'd like to have my friend over, but, not sure if she's going to be able to. We'd watch Firefly if she ( Read more... )

I don't really have anything to say. Just feeling really down tonight, for some reason. It's cold, I'm getting ready to get undressed and into my warm pjs and some warm socks. I think I'll sip my hot tea and listen to melancholy music. Hearing others sing right now will be very therapeutic, and, will help me cry a little, I think. Maybe I'll ( Read more... )

So, this song makes me think of Natalie Portman in Garden State. Tap dancing. In front of a huge fireplace, in an entirely too vacant mansion. But, full of life because of those two souls sitting there catching a buzz. I love that part in the movie, as I love so many parts in it. This song really puts that feeling into my heart, though, and, ( Read more... )

I had a great weekend. Robyn came down to visit, and, we went out Friday night, because I was going to be babysitting and stuck at home on Saturday night. As it turned out, though, we had tons of fun both nights. I definitely enjoyed the couple of bars we checked out, but, the highest recommendation I can give to any single place that we visited ( Read more... )

I just finished the last episode of Firefly. What a tremendous show, I wish it had never been cancelled. But, then, I may never have heard about it. I did read, though, that the cast is all signed up to make two more movies. I'll be first in line at the theater if they do. Yup, I'm officially a fan of Serenity ( Read more... )

This has been a good week. I've come to the realization that the relationship with Ben and I is over. And, I'm all right with that. At least, for today. ;) But, that's all I can go by. And, I can only take one step and one day at a time. I also realize how much I'm just still searching for that feeling that I had when I was with Brandon. I ( Read more... )