sometimes, it occurs to me, i'm not doing what i should be. should, as in being, what would fulfill my wants as an individual. sometimes, it occurs to me, i might not do what i should do. often, i'm inclined to believe there's too many elements to each situation, too many complications to really go through with anything ( Read more... )

i'm seriously sick of people telling me i should eat meat.
i've never told anyone they should stop eating meat or think the way i do. i'm comfortable with who i am, and i'm comfortable with who everyone else is.
but why do people so desire me to just shut up and do as i'm told??
i seriously don't understand. and fuck. it's irritating.

hahaha. irony ( Read more... )

not really. more just like intangible nudges toward what i already favor to be the direction of my life. i'm not going to work at a damned restaurant for the rest of my life. the impact of my "work" on anyone else's life is essentially insignificant. my will is to help other's. this could explain why i was so good/into psychology at delhi. i only ( Read more... )

( overly large and useless stuff. )

sarah died a few days ago ( Read more... )

jenn called off today. she called me shortly before and told me about troubles with her and todd. it's good to know she knows i'm a good listener, and offered whatever help i could think up ( Read more... )

so, i was at denny's, as i often am. outside, smoking a cigarette, as i often do. not too often, mind you, but enough to note that my neck is chapped and my hands are unusually dry. weather is unkind ( Read more... )

it's raining. rain is the flawless soundtrack. lyrical and purposeful. gaw. it reminds me of an entire macrocosm, a lifeforce we cannot fathom, chose to depreciate and ignore. what one could (or perhaps should) find as a fault of human nature, i somehow find humility ( Read more... )

me and ashley went to nirchi's with sabbs today. it must've been the highlight of my week, haha. we gave sabbs mountain dew, and he went crazy. a 1 year-old on mountain dew is hysterically annoying. we laughed, and laughed, and laughed. we're insane, but we have a jolly good time in public ( Read more... )