annie had about 5 seizures yesterday. i had a lot to do (errands-wise) but i didn't feel good about leaving her alone. watching her seizure so much was frightening, and it felt as if i couldn't offer any comfort whatsoever. mom and i took her to the vet when she got home. she didn't put up a fight when i carried her. when we got there, i put her on ( Read more... )

rob, jenn, nick, jeff and myself helped cassie move today. i rented a u-haul because i'm the only one with a valid driver's license. haha. note that i am the youngest out of the bunch ( Read more... )

delhi wasn't much fun. a good amount of people are more negative than i remember. i'm not sure if it's always been this way, and i've grown enough to distinguish it, or if it's worsened. either way, it's bullocks. misery should not be treated as a snooty, self-centered contest, for which there is no victor. there's no reason under the sun you ( Read more... )

i still miss her. i don't think i'll ever stop missing her. when stupid little things happen, i get the urge to tell her. i talk as if she never left. the other day, i had a dream she went to sleep as a vacation, and everyone thought i was silly for thinking she died. why would i resort to such a fantasy??
andy tattooed me for free, in memorial of ( Read more... )

i never went back to sleep, which provokes the question, "hey ames, what'ya doin' up still??" why, i'll tell you, inquisitive imagination of mine.
grandma passed away today.
it feels ridiculous that i couldn't be there with her during her final moments of life. kathy needed me to come in the afternoon for a couple of hours, so i reluctantly did. as i ( Read more... )

i'm not finding updates on this thing that great anymore. i never thought they were superb, but they were rarely less than crappish.
alright. so. it's 6:12 am. i just came home from work. i made $25 on tips. that's amazing for a hostess, honestly. we don't get tipped. i had a table of 11 who absolutely loved me. everytime i would walk near them, ( Read more... )

i'm about to sound like a fool to some. it's okay. there's always that chance when writing in such a contraption as livejournal.
litter died yesterday. they were all fine in the morning. litter and clarity were sleeping in the corner, in a small bundle of rat mass as usual. bitter was doing something on her own, probably eating. fat thing.
anyway. ( Read more... )

i'd never thought i'd be so glad to have someone call in before.
originally, i was bummed because peg, timmy, april and dad were up visiting grandma. and later, me and lee were supposed to watch office space again. when i got that phone call from katy, saying alan called off and that i would need to work 2 shifts, i moaned a, "well, alright" and got ( Read more... )

my aunt and i went on for a while with little expressions like, "oh, snap!!" and "crackers!!" for about 10 minutes today. grandma was confused, but glad we were so amused. me and my aunt lorraine are pretty silly ( Read more... )

it's nothing short of a miracle i'm coherent at all. this exhaustion is a bit like lucille, toying with a moth that's flown inside from the night. she knows fully well she may strike it down whenever she pleases, but meerly bats it around for a while. exhaustion is like my grandmother's fat cat playing with an insect. grrreat analogy, i knows. i ( Read more... )