This is an addition to the "I Will Not Date You" list found here-> hajita.livejournal.com/143132.html

First, a preface. Gunnard and I broke up almost 4 months ago. We broke up in Haiti on a mission trip because he realized he had lost interest in me 2 months into our 5 month relationship, then blamed me for getting hurt. It's a big ugly thing that I ( Read more... )

I'm amidst a handful of people enduring some of the worst emotional pain they will ever endure in their life and I'm pissed my AC isn't working.

Actually I'm pissed for lots of other reasons, I'm just choosing to funnel it all into the lack of Air Conditioning, and as it's been over 8 weeks since I placed the claim, I've had plenty of things to ( Read more... )

It's a bizarre place to be in surrounded by relationships that span from highly successful to perfectly failing. I have multiple people close to me that are either just married or about to be married, then I have friends who have just finalized divorce, and then people in my life who are struggling with huge problems but working hard to work ( Read more... )

Sometimes I find myself staring at the computer screen or reading or watching TV and suddenly it feels like everything surrounding me is at a fierce vibrate. I have to shut my eyes tight and shake my head a little to shake it off, and even then, sometimes it comes back a few times- shut eyes, shake, open eyes, vibrate, shut eyes, shake, open eyes, ( Read more... )

Alice in Wonderland (Burton) is a brilliant movie ( Read more... )

I am pretty sure I'm about to join an organic food co-op. The pickup is near my house, it's way cheaper than the grocery store, and if I have the fruits and veggies, I'll eat em. Then, I'ma give all my meats to Erinleigh who needs food right now and go straight up vegetarian ( Read more... )

Food was a success last night! We made Spring rolls (wrapped in collards) and sushi, using a parsnip/nut creation for the "rice". It was freaking delicious. and even though he did the actual rolling, I'ma take some credit for helping make the sushi and say we did a darn good job ( Read more... )

Tonight I will be attempting to make raw, vegan sushi for the first time. Thankfully, Boy (we'll call him "Fred" to protect him from being associated with me for now) has had some experience in this, but I have not. ie, Someone is coming to my house to experimentally "cook" something that I haven't the foggiest idea how to make. This doesn't alarm ( Read more... )

I occasionally google myself just to see what will come up and make sure it's nothing too freaky deaky- currently googling self because I am sort of-somewhat-beginning to date a boy (who's pretty stinkin awesome bee-tee-doubleyoo) and he's all google-research-web-guru. Like, he speaks in code, which I can't even begin to wrap my brain around. But ( Read more... )

Okay, so I've hit a big time low. I'm going to therapy for the first time tonight. I'm nervous, excited, relieved, and wanna throw up all at the same time. It may have to get worse before it can get better, but I've gotta stop reliving middle school trauma and I'm not comfortable with the recurring feeling that I could just lay in bed and never get ( Read more... )