Diva and Jordan are both moving away on the same day. Honestly, ex's and whatnot I can deal with. The reason they're usually ex's is because I've dumped them, and for whatever reason they still decide to live in Seattle. Blah. These guys are my two best friends though. They're my moral compass, my rocks, and for the most part the only people that ( Read more... )

I am better than that and I am stronger than that. I proved to myself tonight that I don't have to prove myself. This is my doing and this is my relief. Eventually there will be a confrontation, and I'm hoping that I won't lose my cool but I might.

I hate that Seattle is so small. I should've moved. I still may.

"Far Enough" has meaning for me

The guy I'm dating and the guy I still miss incredibly are two different people. I didn't end up surprising Patrick like I had surprised Garrett back when I still wasn't over that. However, I have to see him again someday. He made me feel things that I've never felt before--it's apparent in this journal if you don't believe me! I can't put ignore ( Read more... )

I wish my parents were more successful and actually made money, and I resent myself for feeling that way.

You know what? I have to stand by what I said a couple of months ago, because it's still true. It may always be that way. Lest we forget, I like to defy logic and often jump right into things. That's part of my fatal flaw :)

He smokes, he's allergic to alcohol, he jokes a little too much sometimes, he can be clingy, he's gonna destroy my phone bill, he has too many "us" plans for the future, being that it's only been a month, and he likes guns which I really detest... but you know? He's kind of cute when he sleeps. Now I just gotta get him to stop snoring and grinding ( Read more... )

It really sucks sometimes when a guy is over something before you are. What am I supposed to do with that?

I really, really miss being independent. This is day 3 I think... I donno. Anyway, I'm getting used to not really having any privacy, but this is just a warm up before the trip to Nebraska. I'll have no independence there whatsoever haha! I never do. Ah well though, my mom is extremely so I'm looking forward to going there... a little bit... ( Read more... )

I want to go back to Sunday October 14th, 2007 and completely freeze time. That was the happiest day of my life. I have one minute and four seconds of it on camera... and now that's all I have ( Read more... )

Well I got a new job today. Starting at the beginning of next year I'll pretty much be something like a freelance server for events in major downtown halls and such. Basically, my kind of boss e-mails me a list of places that need servers for the week and when and where they'll be, and I select the ones that I can do. Each one varies from $13-$15 ( Read more... )