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DAMMIT, NATHAN
i love him. i know i love him, i love him more than i could ever express, he's a part of me and i... he's everything to me, i would give up everything to hug him, to look in his eyes... i can't believe i had all this and i lost it all. we were perfect! we had it! i love him so much, goddammit why did i let him walk away? i should have begged him to ( Read more... ) -
nathan *sigh*
heh, long post. i will forgive you for ignoring it.
well, somehow in my previous entries, i missed mentioning nathan. nathan is.... well, he's everything to me, if that doesn't sound corny at all. he's my other half, he's my soul mate, he's everything love is supposed to be, and more... he's also my ex.
long story short (or at least medium): we ( Read more... ) -
okay, now that i'm a little more sane...
hi. thanks to all the nice people who replied to my last entry with legit concern. i owe my small amounts of self-esteem to people like you. NO thanks to the assholes who are sending me hate mail because i asked for dieting help on an anorexic page. (i thought it was a pro-ana site. clearly i was wrong, judging on the multiple angry messages i ( Read more... ) -
grrRRRrr
I WANT TO FUCKING CUT.
and i don't have a knife, dammit. i have a couple of pushpins, a stapler and some paperclips, that's IT. i want to slash my wrist and watch the blood. i don't particularly want to die, although it's certainly not the worst thing that could happen. but i need blood. i miss the scent, the taste of it. shit, i don't know what to ( Read more... ) -
stupid parents
a couple days ago, my mom noticed that i repeatedly wrote 'fat' on my thighs and gave me a lecture about self-respect, and losing weight "healthily" and suggested that i should be losing about 2 pounds a week. are you kidding me?! i'm talking about losing 100 pounds, that's 50 weeks... thats a year! i am not waiting until i'm a senior to be pretty ( Read more... ) -
hello nonexistent readers of my stupid blog!!
sorry, two entries in two days,i know... *slap on the wrist* but for once i've actually had a fairly interesting time... yesterday i was out for a drive with my mother and managed to crash into a tree. i know that's retarded, i'm such a freakin IDIOT... i can't even brake! any loser can brake! good thing i'm not just any loser, or i might NOT fail ( Read more... ) -
welcome to my loser blog. first entry, big whoop
Well, here's my blog. I am completely anonymous, if you know me or suspect you do, please send me a message about it. For now, I am known only as harpoon-me, a username inspired by my userpic. It's a picture (NOT OF ME, mind) of a large girl. I am, myself a large (by large, I mean ridiculously morbidly obese) girl, and I will put up a picture ( Read more... )