Deleted facebook from my phone.  I didn't need to be so completely attached to the world right now. Everyone is so angry and here I am sitting back hoping for better rock albums to come out cause of it.  To many heads not enough hearts.

I don't know where my head is at right now. that moment when you  just spent the entire weekend with the love of your life and it's the most romantic weekend in the world and only take a moment for you and your husband. Then the next day back crazy Halloween fun time house got trashed lots of work to do now. First meeting I had this morning was ( Read more... )

I guess everyone is reciting the first time they were sexually assulted. I've only told like three people this but its a part of my story. When I was eleven I didnt have any friends. Shocker right. This was after my parents both remarried but now my dad was living on the same old block .  I lived with my mom, which I hated but I got weekends with ( Read more... )

Im a failure.

Ok so the question is...am I starving myself? Well, I guess if you have to ask yourself that question then you probably are.

I dont mean to be but at the same time this has been my biggest wish for myself since I can remember anything.  Since third grade I have been obese. I used to go to weight watchers with my mother when I was 10. They thought it ( Read more... )

Everything is quieter in my head.  I was so angry tonight. At my self mostley but some at him. He doesnt see me at my happiest and not at my saddest. Hes not looking. Im stuck in this house alone not trusting anything in life. I was suppose to go out but was so late, anxiety took over.  Instead I went to bed angry. Now its 4 am and I feel better.  ( Read more... )

So I was really depressed when I couldn't go up North with Paul that when my daughter came by and saw that I was so sad. I asked her if she could babysit and she did. I feel completely guilty asking her to watch my 3 kids overnight so I can go up and spend one night with some friends. It made me feel needy and kind of the Irresponsible. My poor ( Read more... )

Im upset that he left for up north so eagerly without me. He dosent try when it comes to the topic of me.  I need to stop wanting things.    Want leads to disapointment.  I keep saying in my head....stop wanting things stop wanting things stop wanting things.

So alone......

I dont remember how I met Erin.  I know he went to school with me.  I was in 4th and he was in 7th.  I would go to his house and he was similar to what I had which was parents who worked and never home. And we both wanted to fuck.  He was the first boy I messed around with a full grown um....yeah.  Being fully naked with him was amazing. We still ( Read more... )