Me and my uncle slowley got more wasted through the night.  We watched a video that he made of my dad singing.  It had close to a dozen songs. One being one they wrote for me when I was born. And one of his last shows where he got up to almost 400lbs. Ok i broke the ice...were wasted and crying...boom.  Could my dad rape my mother or is she lying ( Read more... )

Went to go to see my uncle Andy a couple of weeks back.  My intentions were to get a little wasted and get dirt on my dad and I guess my mom too.  After her telling me about the rape I didnt know what to believe.  Could the man I loved so much. The man that when he died took a huge part of me with him and left his mark on my soul. Could he take it ( Read more... )

So what's been up with me. Surgery went very well Asher is now 14 month old. And I'm finally feeling like my old self again. I have way more energy and I'm not really eating a lot. I don't know if I'm losing any weight because I don't own a scale but I feel better then I did before. I still have a lot on my mind mostly to do with my family so I've ( Read more... )

So,,,,what am I suppose to do ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I am having surgery, It's not huge it just a c-section and it's my second one at that. I am so happy to bring my 3rd boy into this world. My boys mean everything to me and my new little guy is just going to be the beginning of a whole new chapter. I can't wait to see, smell and touch him. The truth is I am scared. I am scared I am going ( Read more... )

I always seem to want to write this time of year...wierd

what a day, what a year. Lots of things have changed and for the better. Better eating, better loveing, better body on the way. Looking to better my job....what can I say....better!

Response to a political conversation I saw about shady news reporting on a shady story about our shady government killing bin ladin ( Read more... )

When I was Five I remember part of my Birthday party. I remember them telling me to cover my eyes and All I wanted to do was peek. So My next door neighbor put her hands over my eyes so they could bring me my bike. It was wonderful it was what every little girl wanted and with that bike I skinned my knee, ran over a kid and took off a toe nail ( Read more... )

I feel that Iv'e become very appreciative of my moments with my husband and my sons. I've tried my best with my mother even though it always fails. I tried. Each day that passes though the pain scares me. The lump in my breast and the chest pains... the dizzyness and ringing in my ears. I can't afford to see a doctor and I refuse to leave my ( Read more... )