sooooooooo, yeah. messups happen, friends get hurt. I get all caught up in trying to "find myself" friends get hurt. I try to give friends space, and often end up simply losing most or all contact with them, and then sometimse I get frustrated with this and, guess what???? FRIENDS GET HURT....the world got blown up w/ wayward nukes over good ( Read more... )

cell phones must die!!!!! brooding must die!!!!!! self pity must die!!!!!! procrastination must die!!!!!!

incidentially... I have triskets to eat!

ever get that feeling that you're in a box... isolated, surrounded by walls that like sentinels accompany you everywhere you go, occassionally disguising themselves in vibrant colors and sweeping murals, but still walls, all the same? Ever have the feeling that you carry that box with you, that it follows you through school, through life, through ( Read more... )

a friend of mine just reminded me of the whole "cherish what you've got while you've got it" thing...I'm wondering if I can ever change my priorities, if I can ever be about more than survival and videogames. I"m hoping to cement the internship shindig at KNI......working w/ folks as far gone as the residents there... gonna be scary....I'm still ( Read more... )

interesting, between comandeering a random acquaintences compy, and rolling a giant ball of crap nearly 240 meters in diameter in Katamari Damacy, quite possibly one of the greatest japanese games EVER, I realized, I've changed considerably since the little guy w/ no social life dweeling infront of the comforting green glow of a moniter every free ( Read more... )

Intruder alert, intruder alert! rrrrg, so yeah, my lesbian roommate is having something of an exchange w/ a guy again, and that's fine, what i don't like is the frequency with which he hangs out in my territories and my lurking places in the apartment, he's intruding on my turf, I couldn't give a flying fuck what he and her do, that's their ( Read more... )

I love my job! I got paid to sit on my ass part of the time while my department got their shit together, then I got paid to have someone buy donuts for me, and then for someone to buy me a nice mexican lunch. And then I got paid to almost fall asleep labeling boxes in the dungeon, (which I didn't, by the way) , but yeah... my job kicks ass! the ( Read more... )

*sigh*...someday, I'll find a place of respect and consideration, of confidence and invitation. Someday, I"ll find a place for me, a place to call my own, with people who I understand, and who understand me. Someday I'll find a place where I"m not ignored, where I"m not abandoned, where I"m not discarded. Someday, I'll find a place that I can ( Read more... )

be like you

the sands of change, they are a-shiftin, and its getting harder to walk, the breath of the familiar, it is a-liftin, and its getting harder to talk. stick something w/ the same needle enough times, you start losing the point... the way I'm seeing it, something big needs to happen, either within, or without, or both, sameness can kill you, run ( Read more... )