another exciting saturday night sitting in my room alone!  i wish i had friends who liked to do fun things like go out to the bar or to the movies or anything.  i wish i had friends in general.  i mean i guess being alone isnt as bad as hanging out witih people i cant stand cuz i dont have to pretend and i dont have to wear pants, but i really just ( Read more... )

my life sucks and is going to suck more in a little over a month.   i do nothing. i have no friends.  im incredibly bored.  i know most of this is my fault cuz i hate most of you people, but damn, why the fuck did i quit smoking?  its been five days and i want to kill myself.  i thought rob would be like "hey! look what shes doing for me! quitting ( Read more... )

1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode ( Read more... )

how fucking pathetic is it that we based our future, our happiness on a fucking lottery?!? if it wasn't imbarrassing enough to have to apply for it, loosing the lottery fucking killed me. do you know what its like? some of you, yeah, you do, but most of you think you do it its worse. you dont know. if fucking hurts so much to say im too poor ( Read more... )

still no land; still no house. we entered to win three out of six youth lots in oak bluffs based on the amount of time we've lived in the town without ever owning a home. we didn't get any of them. we've been living on the island for fifteen years and still don't own a home. actually we've never owned a home. its so fustrating not knowing ( Read more... )

my back is killing me. i hate this bed! every day i wake up and there is another part of my back thats hurting. its to the point where i cant even sit for more than ten minutes without having to get up and strech. and speaking of, grrr. it hurts so much!

im so fucking stupid. i wish i could sleep. my stomach hurts and my mind is restless. every time i close my eyes i start to worry about something else. i have a lot of work to do but i cant do any of it because im too worried about it. i wish there was someone to talk to right now but its almost 4:30 in the morning. grrr. im so bored and all ( Read more... )

I changed my life.  After two weeks of student teaching in Somerville I dropped my education major and my inturnship.  This is my last semester of college and I've decided what I want to do.  Unfortunetly I cant do what I want to do in only one semester so I'm doing whats easiest. My major is English and I completed it last semester so now Im just ( Read more... )

Today was my first day as a manager and it was hell.  I'm not doing anything different than I did before but now I have to make sure everyone else is doing what they are supposed to.  More than half the customers were assholes today and we got busted for having hood strings on the kids sweatshirts.  If your kid is dumb enough to strangle ( Read more... )

I dont really have any friends right now and Im kind of enjoying it.  Not that you're all not great (well, some of you do kind of suck), but without everyone around I get to think about myself all day long and it feels nice.  I think about you too, but mostly me.  I've been thinking about my future and where I am going to be.  People keep asking me ( Read more... )