last night was the end of 2004. it was a wild year, and ive realized that ive been through a lot. i was left by a friend for a boy. twice. only yet to be found again. and for that, i am thankful. i turned 16. got a car. stumbled across a broken heart, or actually a few. went to phoenix. made out with one too many boys in a night. and done many ( Read more... )

his smell lingers upon my fire bitten clothes. and it excites me. that finally. something good has hit my heart. uplifted it. instead of shooting it down. innocently. and i just hope. with all my might. that he feels the same. but that is it. i simply need to quit worrying constantly. about everything imaginable. i wish i could stop. but its...a ( Read more... )

i feel horrible. as if my friends think im leaving them. and i try my hardest. and as the tears fell down my face, i think they still failed to understand. that they are the world to me. but it seems to be different for them. or maybe im just over-reacting. because ive been left by friends 3 times for boys. and i absolutely hate it. and i would ( Read more... )

it's official, and it's christmas. what a coincidence. my mom is making rice crispy treats, with little green and red sprinkles. which excites me. because it brings me back to my childhood. and its already the big day, and im still awake. but i may be too excited to go to sleep. just because of the wonderful conversation i participated in tonight. ( Read more... )

im a bit drunk, but not to any extreme extent. i wanted to ask you what was up. but im so unsure of things right now. and i wish someone would make it easy on me, and make me sure. though i know nothing in this world is quite that easy. so i suppose i will have to learn for myself. and i hope youre not still interested in her. but its just a hope, ( Read more... )

i'm bored! someone get on msn and talk to me!

i hate when people assume. i dont talk shit. its ignorant. and its dumb. i hate when people do it to me, so instead of stooping down to their level, i try to stear clear of all the drama. which is one of the reasons i went to ppeptec. because it seems to me that most people in this town dont know how to keep their mouth shut. they feed off drama, ( Read more... )

last night was awesome. the mean reds....thats all i have to say. they even played operator just for us sierra vista kids. and plague of dandelions was great too. but getting there was a bitch. crystal was having trouble reading the directions, and i have a little trouble telling my left from right. so i took a left turn where i couldnt, and ( Read more... )

im shaking. not only is it cold, but i simply dont feel well. im listening to the oldies, trying to force myself into a better mood. but it doesnt seem to be working too well. i hung out with mal, syd, korina, and the rest. it was fun i suppose. but i had an empty feeling, deep inside the pit of my stomach. and it wouldnt stop. stop haunting me. ( Read more... )

ok. im bored. and my tongue hurts and i dont know why. i hope its not infected. ahhh. how i love good news. and tomorrow is the last day of school. and i get out at 10:30. that excites me. but ive realized. i need to let my heart go. ive finally found the key. the hard part is using it. if i never let loose and quit worrying, ill never know what ( Read more... )