I'm not so sure that I know what matters anymore. I used to think that feelings matter. And I still do,, but I've come to the point of believing that my feelings matter more now. Is that right ( Read more... )

I'm kind of worried, because I've been eating really terribly. I wont eat for days, and then I'll go on a binge of eating all kinds of sweets. This a pattern that I'm recognizing in myself more and more lately. I am not sure if I can blame it on not making the audition for the modeling opportunity, or if it's because I am just addicted to to trying ( Read more... )

Do you think that love is something that you have to constantly work at maintaining? Or should it be completely effortless ( Read more... )

Today is definately not a good Wednesday. I think that it's one of my least favorite days of the week. More morons seem to call in on days like today... And angry people too. Grr. I hate this job, but I would feel terrible to leave, because it seems like one after another they are dropping like flies. I can't believe that the Secretary of State's ( Read more... )

So last night I went and got the mail... Big mistake. I should have just left it for Chet to get, because there was nothing but bad news in it. Our phone bill that is supposed to be on average $30 was $247 because apparently "our equipment is faulty" and keeps dialing 411 direct service at $1 a time without us actually getting any directory ( Read more... )

I've been having lots of dreams lately. And I can remember them at certain points in the day, and I can think of them as soon as I wake up, but as soon as I began this journal, they crept into a dark hiding place, where I cannot find them. Last night I tossed and turned. I hate it. However much I don't sleep though, I find myself that much more ( Read more... )

So yesterday morning I woke up at about 2A.M. to the feeling that I was going to be sick. And for the next 5 hours I was throwing up non-stop. I have no idea what caused it. Well I guess I have an idea. Two of them actually. One of them being that I am pregnant, and I'm still not completely sure that's not true. And the more logical reason being ( Read more... )

1. Name ( Read more... )

Eventually I want to get married. And I want the Groom to be Chet. However, he's already had the experience of walking down the isle, and now that the first time failed he really doesn't want to do it again ( Read more... )

Wonderment his eyes contained, when I trounced up the driveway bearing a dozen roses in my right hand, and a monsterous box of chocolates in the other. A card that Said he's my better half silently slipped in with the red's and pinks. Into his office I pounced, and slyly slipped them onto the receptionist's desk.... Late for work I was, so hurry I ( Read more... )