tonight i will always remember. not because i want to, but because i will never forget it. things were said tonight that should not have been said. i can only hope that regret does not haunt us for the rest of our lives.....

i figure i will be up late tonight. i am bored and not tired because i slept in till noon today. i am sad because everyone is busy tomorrow, and by everyone i mean the 2 people i hang out with. which sux, because today strawberry went to stay with ryans cousin for a while which means i will be home all alone tomorrow with nothing to do but pitty ( Read more... )

is there anyone out there who isnt a complete fucking idiot who wants and has the time to take care of a really sweet dog..if so call me or post. 623 776 2720

i havent written in what seems like forever. i have been gone alot. i went to the beach for a week, and now i am leaving today to go to a cabin in the burning woods up north! whoooo. nicole comes home soon thank god. i have missed her more than she knows! so i am listenign to blink 182 right now! haha. well jordan has just arrived, which means my ( Read more... )

today russell came over and we hung out for a long while. it was great, we had fun...i think. it was really boring at my house, but i forewarned him. we played with the ferret alot, then we just talked. it was good to see him..... i hadnt seen him in forever! he has a show coming up soon... you all should go!

tonight i feel...... like i may be up for a long while. my eyes and body are so tired but my mind refuses to let them rest. the past few nights have been kinda akward and hard. it is only when you are truley alone that your mind lets you know what it is feeling. and sometimes it is good, then sometimes it is bad. i dont really know how to express ( Read more... )

i didnt sleep that well last night. i took a sleeping pill, but could not find sleep anywhere. so i sat there playing my gameboy all night, fading in and out of what seemed like a watery halusination. i cannot spell that word and also do not give a damn! i am still really tired, but i had to get up in order to watch my ever so wonderful ambush ( Read more... )

ryan's new ferrett is quite a little devil. i have had to put up with it shitting everwhere and making noise at 4 in the fucking morning! dont get me wrong i love the little bugger, but JESUS, he is damn load! i saw cromicles of ridick yesterday. it was good, but also predicable, i mena really, can vin diesl die? even if i do not talk to someone ( Read more... )

well, the last few days have been,... different to say the least. ryan's beloved rat died yesterday. if any of you knew him than you knew he was an awesome rat that was one of a kind. sounds silly to say about a rat, but it is the truth. ryan is sad. it makes me sad. i think he is going ot get a farrett. i have a rat now. his name is Newbert. i got ( Read more... )

i never wake up in the middle of the night and wake up for like 3 hours. i have watched connan o'brien and even the 5th wheel. i am so bored. my mom went out of town this morning. i woke up tonight expecting her to wake up also, ask me if i am ok and talk to me...but instead i was greeted by the scilence and emptiness of her room. its weird to say ( Read more... )