I feel as if my dad threw a brick in my window
and ran today
and attaced to that brick was a lil note that said
Hey You have a baby brother!
ACCEPT IT!

I WANT SO BAD TO LOVE THIS KID.
I WANT SO BAD TO CARE FOR HIM AND HOLD HIM.
AND LET HIM KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HIM.

but i can't until i know for a fact he is forsure my brother.
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Lately
Our nights have ended
With Screams
With silence
With anger
With frustration
With Hate
With Tears

But Tonight It ended with a kiss and smiles.

[but i will not get my hopes up]

I'm not happy here
I love madison
and i love everyone here
but i'm just ready for something new.

i feel as if i'm just running again
so i'm trying to force myself to stay
but i'm scared if i do i wont be happy.

i dont know what to do
i guess i just wait and see what happens
come march.

:(

I Can Honestly Say

I have let go of my past.
in many ways!

and iv never felt soo good

only thing is
is that i feel like moving again
and a part of me says its because i want to start fresh
but the other part says i'm just running again.

idk what to do
Only time will tell

all i'm worried about right now
is me being happy

and i am!

I'm Doing what ever i can to keep myself busy
I dont want to sit still

becuz when i do everything hits me
all the drama
all the shit w/ my dad
just Everything.

and i just dont want to deal w/ it
i just want to hide
but thats not the right thing to do

there for i'm just keeping myself busy

so if you wanna help keep me busy
i could use it!!!

:)

I Wish I had Never Met Him

and I Mean That w/ all my heart.

Whats left of it that is.

I wish
The weekends would last forever!

Mondays SUCK!

Where to start?

hmmm

Things are good for once.
I'm extremely happy.
its weird
but i like it haha

I have made the choice to be more understanding
in the situation w/ my dad. Its not all his fault.
Iv been spending more time w/ my mom
she is going thru some really hard times right now
her best friend just found out that she has leukemia
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You want to catch your breath
[you want to get out]
But as you surface
you don't really know how
How to live upon the
[solid ground]
Sometimes it's easier
to let yourself
[drown]

I know I need to change my ways
but to be completely honest
I dont want to.

I no longer have a reason
to change my ways.
as of right now that is.

I'm haveing fun,
I'm Happy.
and i'm protecting myself from
assholes.

I'm sick of guys
screwing me over
making me believe one thing
but doing the complete opposite.
so i'm keeping to myself
hanging out w/ friends
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