I guess you could say i'm doing
okay

things aren't good
but there not too bad either

i could ask for better
but i'm not going to
only becuz if i do and i get it
it never lasts
and the let down is not somthing i want

i really have no feelings right now
i'm not happy
and i'm not sad

i'm just
Okay.

so i found out no one realy wants to hear it
but i need to get it out
so if you dont want to hear me complain
dont read anymore.

My dad is haveing a kid.
I'm going to have a lil brother.
and honestly i dont know how to deal all of it
i finaly said somthing to my dad about it
and it ended in a huge fight
and we aren't talking right now
well he tries to call ( Read more... )

What do you do when you feel like you have nothing?

My friends, They lie
or ditch me.
My family, well they lie too
and never put forth effort to see me
or in the case of my so called sister
not only does she lie but she
talks more shit about me then anyone else

I just feel alone
like i have nothing
and i'm going no where

Its the worst feeling in the world ( Read more... )

I Hold it all back
I keep it all in

but there is so much i want to say
so much i need to say

but i can't
and i wont

I just can't get myself to do it.

|I'm scared|

|5 years ago|

its funny how things change.

I no longer believe iv ever truly been in love
i know i loved him
and i know i spent 2+ amazing years w/ him
He was who i thought was my 1st True Love.

but looking back on it now, i dont think i loved him as much as i thought i did
or maybe he didn't love me as much as i thought he did

I dont know anymore, Iv ( Read more... )

Some one asked me how i doing today
and if everything was going ok.
and i didn't know what to say
i was at a loss for words
or should i say feelings

I keep going thru the same thing
and i'm doing this to myself
and why?
well i'm stupid!

I no longer know how i feel
about the situation
about the other person
and worst of all,
about myself

Really all i ( Read more... )

I Disappoint
 Myself

Cold air blows in
and
Nothing Feels right any more

[I'm Scared]

 ["You'll feel better tomorrow. I promise."]

[I believed him.]
and
[When "tomorrow" came he was  gone. ]

Everything happens for a reason.
Right?

So, Answer me this
WHY?!

{I have yet to feel better.}

{ It's my own fault.}

Because I Believed him.

[Trust.]

Iv lost it.

[The Simple things]

~Smile!~

Im back to not sleeping
its like i feel as if i'm going to miss somthing
or someone

but honestly its 3am what the fuck am i going to miss

ugh this sucks!

on a side note shakira is on the TV
and she is painted  all gold

somthing i could of missed
hahaha

this girl needs SLEEP!!! NOW!!!

:(