Monday thru Thursday

Wake up
sit around
go to work
come home
sit around
go to bed

*starting next week
One Tree Hill on wednesdays*

people may come over
and i may go out
but i dont put forth much effort to do much
or see anyone

Friday and Saturday

Wake up
sit around
*friday go to work
and come home*

and then I go w/ the flow
dont really call people
and if ( Read more... )

I'm so fed up,
and sick of peoples shit.

if you are a true friend you know
I HAVE TRUST ISSUES!

so why would my friends Lie to me?!
its the worst thing you could do to me!

and its one thing i wont let happen
I'm so sick of giving second chances!
I'm DONE!

so, to those who recently lied to me
or deceived me your done
i will be nice but my trust in you is ( Read more... )

"Love is when one person knows
all of your secrets...
your deepest, darkest,
most dreadful secrets...
and yet in the end,
that one person does not think any less of you
even if the rest of the world does."

I have done nothing but give
and care way to much

why can't he see that?
why does he continue to run away from me?

I dont get it
But I Blame Myself.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53% Stability |||||||||| 36% Orderliness |||||||||||| 46% Accommodation |||||||||||||| 56% Interdependence |||||||||| 36% Intellectual |||||| 23% Mystical |||||||||| 36% Artistic |||||||||||| 50% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56% Materialism ( Read more... )

Last night, i did nothing
but it was great!
I spent the night w/ one of my best friends
iv never met anyone like him
and i love him
and trust him w/ all my heart!!

The night was great, we sat around doing nothing
Watchig lost and talking and fighting
about stupid shit
but most of all we laughed
and i had a smileon my face 99% of the time

until this ( Read more... )

Things are going good!
Surprisingly

I'm happy!
for the most part.

Iv been keeping to myself
Spending most of my time
Thinking about life
I need to get back in school
and in jan. im going back!

and im pretty damn excited about it
all i have to do is get my ass in gear and get shit together
but i'm very motivated to, i haven't been this motivated in a long ( Read more... )

I know iv said this before ...

But
I miss him.

I went so long
4 months
Not seeing  him
Not talking to him
Not even thinking of him

and its funny how one Night can change everything

I need to get away from this
I need to hide from him

Seriously
its been Over a YEAR Why can't i let go!?

I feel weak, I let simple words bring me to tears ( Read more... )

I hurts but its a pain iv grown to 
love 
as odd as it sounds its the truth
i keep hurting myself 
so i obviously 
like the pain 
i dont know why 
but i keep doing it 
and its my own fault 
ugh.

bottom line

Im a fuck up!