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[howtokillmyself]

Uh, so yeah. I feel pretty hopeless and I just want to get loaded. It's six A.M. and I'm out of food. That's another thing I fucking hate about this place... you have to buy individual meals... I miss being able to go grocery shopping, having a kitchen to cook it in, and fridge to store it. At least I go home in a week... for less than week. :( I

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[asthinasher]

heart attack scare?! what happened! when was this?

awwww, no no this entry is not good!
i had no idea you were feeling so shitty these days. jesus.

and it wouldn't do any good to say that we all have them and that these periods will pass... even though i did just say that. hah!

<33 chin up.
:hugs:

Thanks <3

[howtokillmyself]

When I was around 16. Sitting in class one day when this huge, painful pressure just swelled up in my chest and spread into my left arm... I just sat there, stunned, wondering if what I thought was about to happen was really happening. And then it was like something clicked and the pressure just released. I never told anybody about it so I have no idea what really happened... just that it was probably a sign that I'm fucking up my heart from all the binging/fasting/purging I've done... went home afterwards and binged anyway.... meh.

And yeah, I know it will pass... It just gets so hard waiting for that to happen. :/

[plainers]

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[twinkleyed]

Your entry freaked me out, not because of the content but because of how much i could relate. Especially what you said about the incest. Just thought you should know you are not alone. *hugs*

[not_my_body]

*hugs* i didn't know that u had a heart attack scare. i read what u wrote to that girl above & at least i know a bit about it now. im just hoping that it doesn't happen again.
take care ok,
xo R.