two shots of that's how my life works

okay so i should be sleeping right now. but i just talked to eric and i need to just get this out. so i had my pcc interview on saturday and i've made my decision- and i'm sticking to it no matter how much i feel like i'm doing the wrong thing. i've been going back and forth since the begging of this year and i've decided if i get the job as a ( Read more... )

so i had my surgery yesterday and the only time my mouth really hurts is when i laugh or smile. other than that it's not too bad. well acutally i have no idea if it hurts because i'm on vicadin...and i am SO out of it. like i feel like i am floating on a cloud. everytime i get up i feel like i'm going to just fly off the ground. it's SUCH a weird ( Read more... )

so alot going on right now. main focus- this summer. my mom told me that "it would be helpful to the family if i worked at the beach with TJ but it's your choice" aka my mom needs me to help make extra money this summer...camp isn't really an option and it's killing me because i just convinced myself that i could get through this summer- make new ( Read more... )

alirght- so in 5th and 6th grade i used to have to take something for the extremes that stress brought me. basically it was like my stomache felt like it was going to explode from having a ton of dynamite shoved down my throat. when i get really stressed that feeling comes back. right now it is wicked bad because i just got into a fight with kels ( Read more... )

these past few days have been horrible. i just feel so lost. like i'm in a huge crowd and i'm getting pushed around and i can't find anyone i know. erica and jenna are rooming together next year and i can't stand to be around them because everytime i am i get wicked upset and feel like breaking down. everything was set. but as always, everything ( Read more... )

so after 18 years of striving to be different and not care what others think i finally fell victim to peer pressure. and i blame aaron 100%. so it all started when he was saying how i wouldn't actually strip in my strip tease dance with kel and katie. he's right but the way he said it was "heather wouldn't because she's all god camp and just ( Read more... )

so my mind has been wandering again. i've pretty much made up my mind on what i'm going to do this summer but it's a really hard decision because no matter what, i lose. but i also win. which ever choice i make will be the right choice- i know it. if i do pcc i know i will have fun and get a new experience. if i do ccl i will have so many new ideas ( Read more... )

so i went home this weekend. i love going home because everytime i go home i just can't stop smiling. i can be myself and be with people that i love; people that know me. i just love how i can get in Tj's car and it's like no time has passed. i love being with kels and just know that i have someone who is there for me. i love going places and ( Read more... )

okay so i am not doing too good. i know something is going on between aly and aaron and it makes me really upset because i would NEVER get back together with him because i don't want what happened before to happen again but that doesn't mean that i don't still feel something for him. he just came by and asked me to go watch a movie with him and aly ( Read more... )