I was sitting in my room watching Flavor of Love when I realized SHIT! I have to update my livejournal or Amy wil be mad ( Read more... )

Its boring to be in California when no ones around and my sister and Jason have no cable. But hey, at least Im out of Buffalo for the week right ( Read more... )

Her death caught me off guard. I can't deal with the fact that I didn't make it. Pulling a U turn and driving as fast as I could without getting pulled over wasn't fast enough. I ran into the house 4 minutes to late. 4 minutes. When David said the words with tears in his eyes "I'm sorry, she's gone". I broke down into uncontrolable tears ( Read more... )

So I'm in california now. And its super nice here, as opposed to buffalo. But I look like a weirdo because everyone is running around in jackets and Im in jeans and a tee-shirt. Apparently 60 degree weather is cold to these people. Well its like 60 to 65. I dont know, Im not a weatherman. But its warm for me.

I'll be back in like 5 days.

Im going to california tomorrow to see my sister. yay!

I have nothing else to say, I just wanted to rub that in everyones face.

I guess I'll update on my life for anyone who cares ( Read more... )

Havent touched livejournal in awhile. So this obviously means Im at Chad's ( Read more... )

I am such a fuck up. I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont wanna deal with my parents, but Im going to have to eventually.

I want them to know Im ok, but its not going to be easy enough just to tell them that and leave it at that. They're going to want to know more.

I know Im going nowhere in life. Everyone knows that. Fuck hillview, looks like I'll be doing the last thing I really wanted to do, go back to the factory. I hate it there so much, it just makes me feel like even more of a failure because I have to start working there again. I have no choice ( Read more... )

So today after alot of thought, I decided it was best to move in with my father. So as of currently I am living with him. I look at it as doing it for the best. I grabbed the things that I need most and Im going to slowly get the rest of my shit this week.

I hope I did the right thing.