Ok. Yes he behaved at prom. He said she was boring cuz all she wanted to do was just sit there. I was like well if I could've gone i would have boogied. But yesterday was our 2month. It was soo good! We went horseback riding and spent the whole day together. I love him so much. We'lle be together forever!!

Well hes at prom. OMG!! He looked so absolutely wonderful! I have never seen a guy so handsome in my life. Yeah I cried when he left but im ok now. I trust him and I know no matter what he does he'll be good to me and remember that he has a girlfrined at home who loves him. Because I do. I know earlier I said some bad things but it was only because ( Read more... )

Why do people make promises if they're just gonna break them? Thats what hurts me the most. And why do people lie? Its like damn just grow some balls and tell the truth. When it comes to me thats all it ever is... broken promises and lies. Not me doing it but everyone close to me doing it to me. Why why why? And the only person that I truly love ( Read more... )

Ok ok ok. I know i was complaining about Jason but it was only because i was in a bad mood. I love him with all of my heart. And our honeymoon stage is definately not even close to being over. OMG!! Everything about him is just so damn perfect. He makes me feel so good. Yeah today was great. Especially after we went and got our McDonalds. GOOD GOOD ( Read more... )

I feel like such a fuckin crybaby. Thats all I ever do. I just wish I could stop feeling like this. And you know whats funny? Everyday he makes me cry. I know he doesnt try to be mean but everything he says just really hurts my feelings. Guess the honeymoon stage is over. I bet you if I didnt call him all day i would only talk to him like 1 time. ( Read more... )

Im on spring break and i have been up since 4:00. I havent written for a while so I figured I would. Im so tired but I cant stop thinking about everything that is going on. I feel like the one person I love... the one person I am truly in love with... the one person who is always there for me and always makes all the pain go away... I feel like hes ( Read more... )

I feel so scared. So alone. So unwanted. So unloved. These feelings wont go away. I just cant stop crying. I wanna die. I want the knife so bad. One little cut thats all i wanna do. It will make me feel so much better. I promised him i wouldnt but its laying right there. Im scared he will break up with me. I know this sounds bad but right now i ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just wish I knew who i was. Its so hard living a life not knowing who you are or why you do the things you do. Im so confused all the time. Im so mad all the time. I never dream. I just have nightmares full of lies and hate. Full of blood. I wake up sweating and panting. Sometimes I try so hard not to fall asleep because i dont wanna ( Read more... )

I wish....

Sometimes i wish i could be someone else. Live someone elses life. But mostly i wish i could just be myself. I just wanna be me and be accepted. I dont want people to judge me from things i've done in the past. What i really want to say is i wish my mom would just love me. Love me like she does my sister and little brother. I want her ( Read more... )

Im so bored! I was supposed to go to my baby's house tonight and watch a movie but my mother has been bitchin all day long. What a ripoff! Anyways. I hate nuns! My religion teacher is Sr. Dolarita but I call her Sr. Dolabitch. Cuz thats what she is a big bitch. I hate her. I know thats a very strong word but if u knew her u would too. My little ( Read more... )