it's hard to not do the things that have kept you alive for so long. it's hard to switch addictions and i thought it was impossible to silence the mind. knowing that my actions are oh so much more than mine alone makes me want to do better. i can ignore this chatter, let it pass even, yet i wish i could just be what i want to be. i want to not ( Read more... )

i ruin friendships. my own that is ( Read more... )

peace kids.

I always feel like I have so many things to say and almost decide to do something about it but the fact is there are so few people I actually want to hear it. Today I thought about regrets and mistakes and being on a different line than the one on which I currently find myself. I saw my future this morning, and I liked it. A parallel line at ( Read more... )

when your brain melts and everything becomes so clear and hazy. the words others speak have no meaning yet the words echo in your mind like your footsteps in that empty ballroom. you walk for miles, perhaps in a circle, perhaps in an elaborate shape for which there is no name. people pass, hours, days pass. time has either stopped or jumped too ( Read more... )

we all have to do what we want to do and say 'fuck you' to everyone else.

today i was driving back from the gym and when i was getting on the highway i saw a middle aged man walking up the on-ramp carrying two pizzas.

I'm back at the golf course, finishing out my last week...the week I never actually finished. The day seems typical minus a lot of fucked up things that seem to make perfect sense at the time. After the day is over, I give the two rookies advice on how to have safer sex with their genital herpes, I recommend valtrex ( Read more... )

today during my shower i found myself having a conversation with my feet.

i was thinking about it today. very rationally, mind you. i realized i was probably the strangest person i know.