I don't think today and tomorrow will ever stop hurting me as much as they do. It always seems to catch me by surprise ( Read more... )

But I think over time I will make them mine.

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

Do people really rethink relationships at a year because they need rethinking, or because they think they need rethinking ( Read more... )

I forgot how much I liked listening to music through headphones. Those big cushy ones, not the earbuds that NEVER fit in my ears. No skipping tracks, no fidgeting. I like lying in bed on top of the covers, and listening to an entire album without moving ( Read more... )

Talked to my big sis for a long time tonight. She's having very similar anxiety to me right now. She also has the GAD. Lately I feel like everyone has it. How much runs in your family, versus how much IS your family? Medication is sounding like a better idea all of the time. If only I had the cash ( Read more... )

I feel like my emotions are out of control. Again. It was one of the reasons I went into therapy originally, just a very "out of control" feeling all the time. And while drugs helped, I don't think I can necessarily turn to that solution again right now. Money definitely being a factor, but I also don't really want to depend on something artificial ( Read more... )

I'm so glad that I was not disappointed in reliving a little bit of my youth last night. Even if it did involve a visit from some old ghosts ( Read more... )

Coming home is hard ( Read more... )

I don't want to think about you today.
I refuse to take blame.
You can just go fuck yourself. ALONE.
Because that's how you'll end up with your behavior.

And funny enough I couldn't even spare one thought for youBut I will think about you, and love you and miss you ( Read more... )

Too much today.
I like things very much how they are, perhaps a few very minor changes.

I don't need you coming in and fucking it up.

Either of you.

Ok, doing a little better now.
Momentary lapse but things are back to where they should be.

I just can't help it.
Happier than I've EVER been.

what did I ever see in you?