This is my journal. A place for me to mourn, to explore my emotions, to vent, to cry, to be honest. I write this for myself, no one else. If you wish to read it, please do, but know that this is my space. I simply like typing and it's faster than hand writing. It's also easier to organize. If you choose to comment, please don't be hurt if I don't ( Read more... )

I don't know if there is anyone around anymore who will read this but I need to let this out. My Dad has been gone 8 years. He wasn't the greatest Dad. He had a lot of faults but I know he loved me. And he was my Dad. I was just flipping through the TV channels trying to find some background noise and stumbled onto the end of Stephen King's " ( Read more... )

love to you all on this difficult holiday weekend.

you are not alone. 

Happy Birthday Daddy.

The last time I [really] spoke to my dad was on Father's day of 2013. He told me my youngest brother was in the hospital for heart-related issues.  A few days later, after speaking to my  brother, he said "I really think we'll be planning a funeral soon ( Read more... )

I'm finding it really hard to let my in-laws know that the reason I just want to be alone for Christmas this year is because I'm sad that tomorrow is 25 years without Dad. They think that I need to be surrounded by family. They're right, I do, but my family are on the other side of the world. As much as I love my in-laws, they can't fill the empty ( Read more... )

I had to say goodbye to my dad this morning it was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. Living without him in my everyday life is going to difficult because he loved and supported me in everything I ever did. He was so caring that he rather spend money on me then himself. To the point where he wouldn't heat anything more then his bedroom ( Read more... )

I hate them. All of those commercials on TV for Father's Day urging people to "show Dad just how much he means to you." I wish there was a button to filter out those commercials, because not only do they remind me that I don't have a father anymore and also it makes me feel like I never had a chance to really show or express to my Dad how much he ( Read more... )

Originally posted by badly_broken2 at water is everywhere...
Originally posted by badly_broken2 at water is everywhere...
So I wake up because I still have this freaking toothache...I walk through my house, go to my kitchen. I turn on the water, get pills, take them and trod back to the other room to hibernate. I am half asleep half awake can't decide how I feel. Probably a ( Read more... )

Today I experienced a grief attack. It felt little like panic attack. I didn't even know that's what it was called, but after crying out loud for what seemed like an hour, I typed in 'i miss my dad' into google search box and saw that there were others dealing with same issues as me. Through this I found the term grief attack, thanks to one of the ( Read more... )