if you take this away i have no one to escort my fears to the place i have built as my fear fort ( Read more... )

in the few weeks since i have seen him, derek and i purchased the same sweatshirt, this among other things makes me kind of believe we were seperated at birth.

a few weeks ago my therapist told me to practice small talk, because i have an intense fear of it, which is why upon first meeting me, most people think i hate them, when i dont. can i ask for some starters? can some one tutor me? please. i need to get over this. thanks and maybe goodnight.

( because she said everyone would do it and i am also not doing homework )

i won't be having dominoes or beer on thanksgiving, because i payed my sbc bill, which means i don't have money to buy pizza or beer ( Read more... )

i got my first rejection letter, which means i am like a real writer or something ( Read more... )

pick one. pick the dish soap or the draino. pick in or out. i am too lost, when highways turn into back alleys that i am going the wrong way on, i just get lost. i thought i was going somewhere bigger, now i am just going to get ticketed for reckless driving.

apparently i am loveable after all ( Read more... )

i am so sick of not being enough.

i am not a good enough friend.

not enough of something else to be a girlfriend.

not enough of anything.

and i think i might quit.

forget quiting school.

i quit life.

i guess i am not having fucking dinner at her house tomorrow.

how the hell does this always fucking happen to me. i never fucking know and then it blows up in my fucking face.

what the hell.

exodus here i come.