I dont know what's wrong, I wish I did but I dont. I feel like im trying to hard for something I cant see. Like everything around me is failing me and I have nothing to grasp. As if I was living in a cardboard house and the rain was causes everything to give and dissolve. You think you have these stable point in your life things you can rely ( Read more... )

So today I was burned out...completley running on empty...soo much to do soo little strength...And I've stressed so much that low and behold I made myself sick...I got back to my room and had a wonderful fever going...Tonight we also were going out to Harry O's to celebrate Esther's B-day so I went for 2 hours and then headed home. As much as ( Read more... )

Okay so practice got out at 12 and I'm getting home at like 2....Yikes plus I still have hmwk...*sigh* It's been a crazy past few dayz and emotional roller coaster if you will. But things are okay so we move on I guess... I'm tired of school already well some of school some classes and other stuff but I do have alot of classes that I love!!! And DZ ( Read more... )

     So it's officially 2 weeks into my senior year...It feels like it's been more but its only been 2 weeks...I've been doing soo much, I dont think there's been one free moment...kinda crazy but nice at the same time...School has been insane...classes are good a few teachers I could do w/out but ya...DZ stuff has been crazy plans are in full ( Read more... )

  It's the second week of school and I honestly dont know how I feel... I really dont... I think right now the only stable/sure thing is the fact that Emma is here and I miss her alot...I dont know... It's be a rough week, for not only me...there have been numerous unexspected hurdles that have arisen out of the dark for everyone... It would be soo ( Read more... )

     Sooo... I just returned for my fabulous weekend in Oregon with Emma...It's nice to know that despite time and not seeing eachother and how diffrent the two of us are we can still be as close as we are. Just appreciating eachother and enjoying eachother's company. Seeing Em in her enviorment and new home made me really happy, it was like being ( Read more... )

     So when you sprain your finger it really hurts and you cant sleep...I spent the whole night tossing and turning becasu eI couldnt sleep :-( But it's okay I just stayed home and tried to rest which sucks becasue I have soo much to do and get done but I'm to tired and unmotivated...Blah!!!! 
     I just watched this movie that I swear is now my ( Read more... )

   Okay so despite no real plans besides work I still managed to make my week dramatic!LOL!... I began by fainting in the begining of the week...Yes I fainted, it's my fault when I feel sick like that I should really rest.....THEN...I got sick for like two days but that went away thank goodness...and FINALLY... today I broke/sprained my finger ( Read more... )

I've been back for about three days and I'm ready to return home... On Tuesday night before I left LA the boys took me to the Kettle, I'd been waiting all week to finaly get to go there, the drive over was nice just calm and quiet with KOST playing on the radio me in the back seat them in the front...simple and how it should be...It's weird because ( Read more... )

So I’ve been missing in action for a bit on here…why?...because I went home. I landed at LAX on Thursday at 6:15. It was weird my heart was beating a mile a minute and I felt like I was having an anxiety attack. I couldn’t believe I was in LA, it was so unreal for me after being in such a low place this summer. I stepped out of the airport and my ( Read more... )