I’m sleeping till one in the afternoon. I’m eating all the shitty foods. I want to leave the goddamn house. I want to drink coffee on a patio while I study. I want to see my gym friends somewhere besides Instagram live ( Read more... )

My MCAT exam date got cancelled and my lab is closed through June. I’ve got more to say but for now this is it.

I feel like the more I learn, the less I know.
That part of knowing is understanding that you can’t ever really know, and that nothing is all one thing. Especially anything involving people.

I swear I’m not high right now. Just emotional because I’m about to start my period and watched this really good show on Apple TV called The Morning Show.

She sent this long Facebook message saying she forgives me. Ten years later she’s replying to the message I sent her apologizing for The Love Crusade™️ ( Read more... )

He blocked me. Which. Is unsurprising ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think about posting publicly and if you choose to read this and get your feelings hurt then that’s on you ( Read more... )

I scheduled this weekend to myself and it’s wild how difficult it is to stick with it. One of my best friends texted me saying she needs s beach day before she offs herself. Another one texting me saying she needs a shoulder to cry about work on. I have a friend that’s about to move away so I should be spending as much time as possible with her. ( Read more... )

Spending time with yourself is just as (if not more) important as spending time with others. Listening to yourself, caring for yourself, giving yourself time to exist without the pressure of outside commitments. Schedule yourself in the same way you would schedule time to spend with your friend or significant other. Give yourself your undivided ( Read more... )

So I'll tell myself I don't until it feels like the truth

I like silk pajamas and hoodies with holes in them

I like science and certainty and art with ambiguity

I like messy and I like being left alone

But I don’t function well in it.

I’m not thriving in this imbalance and I don’t yet know how to retreat for tea and introspection

Everything is so different now and I’m greeting parts of myself I haven’t seen ( Read more... )