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Sunday 8/10/2014
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Damn you stupid song
Why did I have to wake up with the fucking Bruno Mars "I think I wanna marry you" song stuck on repeat in my head?!
Grrrrreat.
At least I did sleep without Zzzquil last night. That's a first in two weeks.
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Friday 8/8/14
Had an okay day.
Work was good. I like the project I'm working on cuz it means I'm not sitting alone at my desk in the lobby (I sit at the receptionist desk, cuz that's part of my duties as office administrator, and I now hate sitting there alone all day). I'm working in the computer dept, and I like the 2 people in there and others are always in ( Read more... ) -
Missing it
I'm sad. I miss sex. Two weeks. I haven't gone this long without sex in like a year basically. I miss it. I didn't know good sex until him. I don't know if I'll ever find someone I was that compatible with. I miss that. I'm sad tonight. But trying not to let it overtake me. I had a fine work day, and I talked to my best friend who lives in Boston ( Read more... ) -
Mental Health Night
Had a good night.
Fought the urge to cancel, but glad I didn't.
Went to Farrah's house. She's got the house to herself all week.
We sat on her back porch. With 5 pints of Ben and Jerry's. No, we did not eat them all, lol.
Bitched about men. I cried a little but it was okay.
We both bitched and complained and talked about what we wanted from life. ( Read more... ) -
Therapy
So I've been seeing a therapist. She's really nice. Like my age, lol.
Do I think it's helping or making a difference? Not really.
But I like her and she's supportive and nice and encouraging. It's good to hear all the things everyone else is telling me from someone who is impartial.
So I'm gunna keep going every week.
This week I'm supposed to work on ( Read more... ) -
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God I wish Zzquil tasted better.
I now take it every night. Puts me to sleep. So I don't have to lay in bed thinking for god knows how long. Crying.
Stay up the 20 mins or so it takes to set in with my parents while they get ready for bed. I'm sure they're sick of me hanging around. But I don't want to sit alone in my room. I can't even stand to have ( Read more... ) -
Box
I had Jimmy give the box of all my stuff to a mutual friend.
I got the box this morning. Autumn and Kyle brought it out to me. Kyle helped me put it in the trunk then held me when I started to cry. Nuzzled my head. Told me it would be okay. Autumn said that I would be better off without Jimmy.
Spent the day with Vanessa. Who I met through Jimmy. She ( Read more... )
