Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms.
I lasted about four hours at work before vomiting explosively. They sent me home. The minute I walked in the door, I did it again. Needless to say, I don't think I'll be going camping this year. I don't want to force my body to deal with the elements and make things worse. I think I'll drink some chicken bullion and take a nap.