It's so nice to be getting back to a semi-regular schedule. For the past few weeks I've been working a ridiculous amount of overtime and staying at work until 1 or 2am every night. Granted the pay is good and I'll be happy when I get my check, but I've been so exhausted and I've barely seen my family. I finally got off work at my normal time ( Read more... )

This journal gives me a chance to let out my frustrations, but its also a stark reminder the next morning of just how much I over-react sometimes. I guess I'm just fearing going back to school cuz I've been burned in the past by people and their judgements and I'm really not looking forward to going through that again. But I know I don't want to ( Read more... )

I love how I'm 21 years old and I'm still being treated like a stupid teenager. And I love how everyone else around me thinks my decisions are wrong. I'm sick and tired of living up to this perfect image. Newsflash...I need to live my own life and learn from my own mistakes. Not that I'm making them on purpose but cut me some slack if for once ( Read more... )

We're down to 5 weeks folks. When I really think about it, it kinda blows my mind. In 5 weeks I'm gonna be in my own apartment, doing everything for myself. And I'll be driving my own car and I'll be back on my own schedule. I've really missed that. I'm so psyched to see people and to go to class which I never thought I would say. But I'm ( Read more... )

Ok...it's time for me too get mushy for a bit. After all, the only people that regularly read and comment on this thing are Todd and Meg and they understand what I'm feeling. I miss Matt a lot. Which is funny because I've seen him so much more than I expected to...and I talk to him just about every day. But I miss being able to just sit and ( Read more... )

It's about half way through the summer which leaves me with just one thought....I still have to live here for half the summer. I love my family but I'm ready to get back to school. I miss everything so much. But I'm also enjoying the time I get to relax, lay out in the sun, work out, read and really dig into my devotions. They have been awesome ( Read more... )

We got the call that my grandma passed away last night. She's my dad's mom and she's been sick for as long as I've known her, especially in the last year. I know she is in heaven with her Savior but the reality that she is gone is still hard. Please pray for my family as I know this will be tough on all of them. There definately is a time and ( Read more... )

I spent about 6 hours in the basement ironing at work tonight. That is way too much time for me to be alone. I'm left with nothing but the noise of washers and dryers and my own thoughts. Whenever I think too much its never a good thing. I have a lot of regrets lately and a lot of apprehensions about the future. My only relief right now is

My brother graduated tonight. I really wasn't prepared for this at all. I figured I would be bored and antsy the whole time. Instead I started crying at 3 different points. Yes, thats right. I cried at a high school function. I usually can't get one tear to form and I couldn't keep them from coming. I was so proud and sad at the same time. ( Read more... )

Praise God! My surgery went well and there is nothing seriously wrong. I guess I have an imbalance in my pH level and I have to take some vitamins and fiber tablets but other than that I'm ok. I go back to see the doctor in July so hopefully I'll find out more then. I have to stick to a healty, high fiber diet which is gonna be tough at times ( Read more... )