i want to lay my face in the ocean and breath it all in.

there are so many many holes...i feel my throat fade to a whisper, and i am afraid. afraid of this world, and of the next, no matter where i go, i am unsafe. all these holes have made me transparent...i want to fill them all with warm steel. be it a gun, be it a blade, any such thing will do....my whisper fades to thought, and all eternity is ( Read more... )

"i know the loneliness is overwhelming...but you aren't alone.
so long as i live, and even beyond that, i swear to you that you will never
be alone.
i'm never so far away..."

--Derek

These words comfort me, may they comfort you too.

I miss you. I missed you before, and i miss you now.

I'm going home.

I am flower named jolly_rodgette !I consist of my friends!Are you flower too?

Due to an increase of pesky and unwanted company, my journal is now Friends Only...Yeeeeeeey..... If you are already a friend, have no fear. If you think you should be a friend, and have reached this message in error, simply leave a coment, and myself or a memeber of my staff will get back to you. PFFff....i so wish i had staff. Not the ( Read more... )

Sometimes i wonder if you know that i know what you dont want me to know....other times i know that you dont care. It's this knowledge that kills me....to know that you dont care at all about what we've gone through together...to throw it all away like that, like i dont matter. I dont matter to you, it didnt take me long to figure this out. I am ( Read more... )

The Potion MakerJolly_Rodgettesium is a cloudy, frangible scarlet solid created from the saliva of a murderer.Yet another fun meme brought to you by rfreebernAnyways...derek had his procedure today, i'm hopin everything went fine. I thought it was funny, that whole...under the tongue of a murderer thing.......i'm feeling like i've killed a few ( Read more... )

I heard the news today, you left from a freind ( Read more... )

what a lovely day today is gonna be...i hope ( Read more... )