sigh......she's so yummy, i enjoy her company so much, she's good at getting me to talk, we're both shy and ackward....she curls up nicely, edges in real close, the simplness of an arm non-chalantly drapped across my legs is enough to make me burst, done so casually it's like she hardly even notices...she can hold my glance, our eyes actually met, ( Read more... )

ok...screw this all... ( Read more... )

once again feeling that people suck..... ( Read more... )

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nothing can just be easy, i can't just go out and have a good time, i can't just order some clothing and expect it to get there when they say it will, or that they'll even call me if it does.........argh....backtrack some....( Read more... )

i hate you max......i'm sick now, my throat was a little sore last night, coughing a little bit more than normal...this morning i wake up coughing up GIANT wads of flem, partially choking/gagging due to the massivness of the flem....ugh....so much flem, i even have a spot for spitting it cause i know it's just too much to keep swallowing all day... ( Read more... )

argh....i suck so much, sitting right next to me, squishing to make room,pushed next to me, actually touching me, i'v forgoten what it's like to have physical contact of any kind, our bare arms touched, we sat shoulder to shoulder, my arm rested next to to her hip, feeling the heat from her body all i wanted was to EXPLODE knowing that i'm too ( Read more... )

the hate overflows ( Read more... )

ugghh...i hate being up at 6:30 for no reason, wide awake unable to get to sleep, ugghh...at least i have the internet to pass time instead of smoking pot untill stupid early morning tv is entertaining.....it makes me pleased when theres been something in my life i've been thinking about for awhile, ratlling around in my brain, and the more i think ( Read more... )

I got me internet now....YAY!!!....makes me happy, now i'm plugged in, another tool towards anit-socialism..even more reason to stay in...yay.....it is a good thing though i think, we'll see, much more conveniant now anyways......teehee....ok, i'm going to be a bit girly now...i'm excited, i ordered me a little waist-cincher, almost like a corset, ( Read more... )