My love is sick and I need help making her feel better!!! She won't let me make her tea to a way where I know she will like it an help her throat or make or get her soup or anything else that works... I am at such a loss. Anyway it is good to be home and not doing all my work at school, the break is really appreciated. More over I guess I just ( Read more... )

Ugh, my mind hurts. I feel so fatigued from god knows what lately. Trying to grauate, trying to get on my schedule for next semeseter, trying to find out about grad schools to get mom of my back, trying to keep in touch with friends to not loose my mind but only realize I have no time for them cuz work and hw take it all away. Damn.... So ( Read more... )

OK!!! Mental and personal lives are fine and saved! Yay!!! Now to just finish out the semester without failing >_

So the way things stand, Jonnie Ann is still in the dark as to what she wants in life. Most people reading this will think thats absolutely normal, but she apparantly has no idea of a desire for herself. I thought that going into college I wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to be with my girlfriend Cheryl at the time and I wanted to have a happy ( Read more... )

So lately I have been thinking of doing all sorts of things. And for the most part, my girlfriend either doesn't want to be a part of them or is fighting me along the way. Now I am not the evil kinda bastard that will make her do anything, and what I want to do is simply just go on trips to places or go out and do random stuff. I don't need my ( Read more... )

So I have come to realize that this is my catharsis. I usually post when something is upsetting me and I need to just have it out there. Tonight I read that a postulant of mine is thinking of dropping the program. I DON'T want him to drop because he is such a nice guy, but I can only say so much because it is his decision to make. They make a ( Read more... )

I dunno why but i am feeling quite depressed a lot lately. I don't know if it's general anxiety or if I am really down about something and just unaware of it. Classes are almost over, seeing the gf again soon, camp is coming. But then again, maybe that's just the problem. Maybe I am doing the same thing over and over until I am numb from it all ( Read more... )

Not a completely bad week off from the usual running around. Was able to relax long enough to let most of my stress melt away and leave me to calm down and not snap. Got into a few fights with jonnie, and I really wish they were at least worth something but they weren't. We can be so foolish sometimes it's sad, ya know? So in the end I was ready ( Read more... )

So I went to work after writing all that, feeling like absolute shit. I sit down and get ready to start calling people and decide I need something to make it all bearable. I set my wallet up like a little photo holder and look at Jonnie's picture while I make my calls. Suddenly I don't feel so bad and everything starts to be okay. By the time I ( Read more... )

I feel shitty. Some of you know I believe in some sort of spiritual essense that is not a personified being, which can be looked at in some kind of wiccan light but not really. Think more Jedi force with no light or dark side, just more or less aware of it. So for no good reason I slip into a funk... again. I am doubting myself, my intelligence ( Read more... )