Well, my health is getting seriously a lot better. I'm pretty sure I still have fibro, but I'm not afraid of it anymore. These days I'm more willing to try to push myself to take the stairs or to walk further or do a little more physical activity. I'm not afraid of pain like I used to be and I'm not have panic attacks just from anticipating pain. I ( Read more... )

There's an excellent falafel place that serves huge mountains of food for relatively cheap in the FiDi, and so all these corporate types are always leaving huge plates of leftovers. I have no shame about taking advantage of end stage capitalism, so any time I eat there I grab all the pristine vegan friendly leftovers. Today was a goldmine!! Someone ( Read more... )

I hate torrenting stuff. It's impossible to find what you want because there's so much popular garbage clogging up the torrents, and everything is buggy/viruses or just awful quality. Also, as an artist, I like paying other artists for their work. I've been trying to track down some music I like on youtube, but a lot of it is foreign. I'm actually ( Read more... )

I was sleeping in a tent in an obscenely windy area and could barely sleep at all with the tornado strength wind tent rustling noise all night, but I did manage to have a nightmare anyway. So, many of you know I've been processing my father issues. I've come to the conclusion that if I never speak with or interact with my father ever again I am ( Read more... )

Part of this meditation program (and well my personal and spiritual growth really) I have to go back to painful parts of my life and reframe what happened or otherwise work through it so that I am able to let go of what happened. Even the really awful shitty traumatic things. I don't have to forgive or forget but I do have to process what happened ( Read more... )

I'm packing my suitcase for 10 days in LA and trying to decide which sweaters, shawls and sweatshirts to bring. I checked the weather report and so far everything is high of 100+ low of 70ish. I had remind myself of what it was like when I was in Las Vegas in August. I thought that I should bring a sweater and a bunch of velvet dresses to LV ( Read more... )

Celebrating a year of no meds!!! Last year about this time I kicked the last prescription I was on for fibromyalgia. I still experience a lot of the symptoms, but they're not so severe that I can't just do some self care. The prescription I was on was causing more side effects than helping. In fact I didn't feel any difference in my fibro symptoms ( Read more... )

Honestly I'm resentful towards men. In general. I'm resentful that I have to deal with them. I'm resentful that they benefit from the patriarchy and expect me to play along. I'm resentful that I've been dependent on men and still feel like I need them for financial security. It's a really difficult place to be in because even if I can cut romantic ( Read more... )

I know this must sound weird or crazy but I took a welding class and it chanegd my life! I thought it would be a fun and useful skill for art projects but it is so much more than that. Welding is generally considered a man's job, and a job for someone that's not too bright. In fact the American Welding Society promotes welding for women because ( Read more... )

I hate Mother's Day. I try to not be hateful about it around other people that like Mother's Day, but I'm just not even going to pretend that I care. My mother was jealous of me. Furiously envious of my willpower, fearlessness, my curly hair, the fact that I was skinny, smart, and apparently more popular than she was in high school. She hated that ( Read more... )