So honestly I don't remember much of 2013 before last week because I was so fatigued. It was really really awful. I don't think I realized how awful it was until I was relieved of it. It was a fucking miracle. You know, I believe in miracles, and lots of probably miraculous things have happened to me, but this was really seriously a miracle. As ( Read more... )

so I'm back at work recovering from last week's big conference that we hosted and Officemate is out sick. Honestly I'm surprised he didn't just take the whole week off like our boss did. I have been experiencing the revenge of the chronic fatigue and migraines. But I am at least impressed by my ability to lose all that damn depression weight and ( Read more... )

My boss and officemate are so fantastic. There's a conference coming up and they just sort of dumped the program book in my lap. It's the really huge annoying project that nobody else wants to do, so they've given me total control over the whole thing, editing and formatting and everything. I feel like they really appreciate and trust me because ( Read more... )

desdemmonna and veilofveronica you two should meet each other because it seems like you have a lot of religious interests in common.

I am back on the acupuncture track! I went back for acupuncture at the friendly local acupuncture school. I've always received really fantastic care there, but sometimes you get students that are a bit off. The guy I saw this time was one of those raw foods SNAG Harbin Hot Springs types complete with stringy long blonde hair. He wasn't terible, but ( Read more... )

Well I'm back down to a size 8, just like before I went through that depression. I'm trying to find old clothes that I packed away, but I think I got rid of most of my old stuff. I remember sorting through stuff at one point and deciding that I needed to just accept that fact that I was going to be a plus size woman and getting rid of a bunch of ( Read more... )

Sleep & Dreams:
Ugh I give up. I'm just one of those morning people so I should just go to bed earlier.
Body:

The stomach flu fucked me up! I struggled to eat solid food until earlier this week, and even now I'm not able to eat a lot. I wonder if part of the eating less and having less appetite is from getting off that neurontin. I've been thinking ( Read more... )

Sleep & Dreams:
The dreams have been rather ordinary and sleep is weird. I have too much energy in the morning. Even if I haven't had nearly enough sleep I need to just start getting out of bed and doing things when I wake up too early instead of lying in bed reading for two hours wishing I could be sleeping. Maybe I should start jogging in the ( Read more... )

Sleep & Dreams:
 I've been trying to get myself back on a segmented sleeping pattern but I just can't seem to sleep past 8:30am and I haven't been able to nap during the day. I just need to accept these facts and not try to reset my sleep cycle by staying up later. Bedtime is midnight, get 8hrs one way or another, and then start working on the ( Read more... )

Sleep:

8ish hours and groggy. Slept late sort of, was exhausted through brunch, and then came home to nap instead of continuing with post-brunch funtime adventures at the marina.

Dream:

I've been processing through personal relationship issues that stem from my sheer terror at falling in love with someone who will die on me. Been praying for an ( Read more... )