decisions made are decisions lost. No matter what I decide to do, something falls in the way of not being able to. " tell us about your future and about yourself" I have to write about what now? I'm 19 years old, I don't k ow who I am, isn't the point of going to college Is that your suppose to figure that out? Well besides the expensive education ( Read more... )

I'm thinking about school a lot lately, and I've now grown interested in Keene State. It's close to home, but far enough away. but I can't decide if I want to go back to Castleton in the fall or go straight to Keene.  If I don't go in the fall that would mean that I would get back to Castleton, as much as I love the people there, I just wouldn't be ( Read more... )

wtf. seriously, I don't understand. I'm pretty there should be some explaining going on. but then maybe I'm just reading into things too much. I miss it when things were simple. like 'hi, i like you' 'hi, i like you too' type of simple. now it's all this guessing and most of the time i'm wrong. or i'm in the wrong, the kind of wrong where they ( Read more... )

why, just why do I believe everything you say. 'everythings going to be alright' 'i love you'. nothings true. you lie and lie and lie. I can't tell the truth out of  your mouth anymore. it's just fighting and fighting and fighting. you trying to make me jealous all the time doesn't work. I"m not jealous of you, I have no reason to be. what exactly ( Read more... )

I'm just not sure anymore. and I dont know about what. Lately, I've been in an up and down mood. it's basically psychotic. One minute I dont feel like doing anything, the next I wish I was. friggen wierd. Sometimes I just wish you would tell her. But that would be too easy wouldn't it?

She fills my bed with gasoline, you think I wouldn't notice. ( Read more... )

Over the past week I've gotten used to the word 'jealou' and the question 'is someone a little jealous?' Yes, it's true I'm jealous. And I feel like I have a lot to be jealous over, I mean look at you. Your pretty damn amazing and any girl would be so lucky to have you to call their own. But it's a little hard to fight off this jealousy when all I  ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what we're doing, and I'm not sure where it's going, and I'm not sure how you feel. But I like it, and I don't care where it goes, and I know I'm all for you.

For once, I'm alright without knowing the outcome.

If you say you're gonna call someone, call them. Don't look them in the eye, and say 'I promise to call you so we can hang out'.

If you say you like someone, do something about it. Stop leading them on, and stop thinking that they don't like you either, most likely they do!.

If you say 'lets hang out', then hang out. Friends hang out ya know.

If ( Read more... )

I’m getting sick of this thing called ‘Life’. It’s getting too hard. Things are getting more and more out of control. I feel like I’m in a dark, black hole. And the things I do to try to get only make me dig deeper. I can hardly see the light now. Every time I think that something is going right, it goes wrong. Something or someone brings me down ( Read more... )

I'm getting out of here.

Leaving.

Last night was the last time.

I'm saving up money, leaving, and not looking back.