Happy New Year. I deactivated Facebook today. It wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it might be ( Read more... )

I think I might be getting sick. Charming because I will soon have no healthcare ( Read more... )

I am trying to do things for myself and take time to figure out who I am again. Today was amazing. I went and did baby goat yoga with a friend of mine. There is absolutely nothing on this planet that could have been better than that. It was the best day ever. Seriously. Many goats stacked on me. I know that sounds weird, but it really was the best ( Read more... )

It's been almost a week. I saw Brian today. He gave me back my skis and some important paperwork I needed to prove residency. It wasn't actually all that awkward. He's being nice. He has been for a week.

I'm so tired. Lots of driving today.

Tomorrow, test driving cars. Perhaps more from my brain. Too tired tonight.

I don't feel great today. Digestively speaking. Not sure if it's something I ate. Or maybe it's just nerves and being feeling so overwhelmed ( Read more... )

Maybe it is a really good thing that I'm talking to Brian every couple of days. I'm starting to realize that this relationship shouldn't have gotten past Malaysia. I honestly wasn't sexually attracted to him like I should have been. He says I didn't want to be touched and pushed him away our entire time together. I don't remember that. I think it ( Read more... )

Christmas Eve. And it still doesn't feel like it ( Read more... )

I did a lot of activity today. A workout DVD and a run. It felt good. If I'm going to stay here for a bit I'm going to have to know when I need space. Today I did a great job of saying, I'm going to go do this because I want to ( Read more... )

Today was harder. I cried whilst telling my mother how painful it was to stay for as long as I did. I cried when I realized I've never really dated anyone who treated me the way I should. Everyone except Sean treated me okay or even great for awhile and then not so much. Turns out I've never felt like I deserved to be treated the way I treat others ( Read more... )

I don't know that it's actually Day 1. I have arrived, but it definitely hasn't set in yet. Probably because all my stuff is still in California. Once I go down to the DMV and get my Colorado license, maybe it will set in. I live here now. Not forever. For now. Not sure how long for now is, but it's more than a week ( Read more... )