im home now. its thursday. im exhausted. guess what? i have sleep apnea/insomnia. im not sure exactly what dr mullaney (what a creepy ass guy) told me, but he said i dont sleep at night because pyschologically im not ever really asleep. its so hard to wake me up in the morning becuase im in that space right between sleep and consciousness, and ( Read more... )

the game! woohoo! it was carazay. (thats a technical term). i made it to home, and thanks to me, we won by seven points and not just six. it was eleven to four. bull dawgs kick ass. and, AND i caught a ball. a big one. i was way out there. i have a shirt, and a hat, but the shirts a large so im swimming in it, and we all know i cant wear hats. uh ( Read more... )

oh man. what a kick ass day i had. with my father, which makes it even better. this morning was pretty insane, but once i was up, i was ok. i only got like an hour of sleep and i was afraid that i was gonna be cranky and bitchy all day but, amazingly, i guess i was beyond the point of being a wench. i was very mellow and very relaxed and content ( Read more... )

1. I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less ( Read more... )

man this is a horrible day. good way to start out, first person i talk to wants nothing more than to insult everything about me. and hes supposed to be my friend. my really, really good friend. and now, now i just dont want to listen to him or put up with him. its amzing how people grow. and change. and i hate it ( Read more... )

im soo hungry, im going to start eating the buttons off of the keyboard. i cannot beleive i am still awake. this is ridiculous. its 8 oclock. EIGHT O CLOCK. i still havent fallen asleep. i read a book, cover to cover, watched some t.v., my gawd. i dosed off at around four, woke up again at four. twenty. one. this is insane. oh man, wait until later ( Read more... )

yeah im good now. well just shrug it off and say it was pms or something. i dont know why i get that way, but im really sorry...i know that nobody deserves it. ill grow out of it. im sure i will ( Read more... )

ever feel like you had it so good, then one person met another person and now you need to break things constantly to stop from hitting people?

no. im probably the only one whos ever felt exactly like this.

i hate myself so much.

to the point where i think that sometimes my dad had it right.

totally right. one hundred percent correct.

i hate

im struggling here ( Read more... )

i. am. such. a. stupid. bitch ( Read more... )