We are actually doing it! It's surreal to think that in 24 hours we will be in Albania. For the first time in my life I'm going through fears of going somewhere like this. I did a gut check and found things like finances and fear of my own wonderlusts...and am I just trying to make something happen here ( Read more... )

As I'm realizing some of my different approaches to "ministry" and even deeper to the reasons of how I approach ministry (theology), I get this dread that maybe I'm stepping outside of God's boundaries. That I'm going too far this time. That I've lost my way. That God is really pissed at me for being sooo flaky (maybe) as I approach the lives he ( Read more... )

We're getting closer to when we go to Albania for 3 weeks. In one way I'm very excited. In another way I have some apprehensions. In the past I have used such travels as one way to validate my personal importance. I realize that's kinda strange...or even a little sick. But I did. It's been a long time since the last major "ministry" travel ( Read more... )

I enjoyed the whole Easter gathering. There were lots of people which usually makes me think I need to perform rather than just be me. I'm learning lots about that...times like today I need just to push me to it in new challenge formats. I purposely slowed myself down so I could enjoy persons rather than being swept in the hype. It just felt ( Read more... )

I'm enjoying the friends I have in this venture. They add another dimension to things. Sometimes I can get in a personal rut. I think that's what I was looking for when I started this whole thing. I've seen bits of it in my online class but as the instructor I can't say what's really on my mind at times ( Read more... )

Today I did a lot of thinking about the whole Easter thing. I don't want to do the "my, wasn't that a fabulous Easter message!" thing. I really want it to mean life stuff for me and whoever wants to listen.

Also, tomorrow's a tough day for El and I...Ben's b-day.

I've never done an online journal. I really don't journal that much on paper...just sporadically when something hits me. Frankly, I'm not sure why I'm doing this except that it kinda perked an interest in me. I teach an online class and am learning community through that. So, here I is...for the first time.