okay, so I messed up. And I'm really sorry for anyone that I worried. I'm a teenager, I make stupid choices that don't seem too bad until you get caught. That's part of what growing up is about. Making mistakes so you can learn from them and not have to make them later in life when it will effect more. My parents are very understanding that ( Read more... )

i've been happy lately. i had kind of down week last week.
but i feel a lot better. people don't realize how much talking can do for you
because a lot of times your thoughts are distorted in your mind
talking them out loud sometimes makes you realize you are being unrealistic.
the human mind amazes me.

P.S.
everyone needs to read An Unquiet Mind by Kay ( Read more... )

I waited till I saw the sun
don't know why I couldn't come home
when I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
instead of kneeling in the sand
catching tear drops in my hand
my heart is drenched in wine
you'll be on my mind.
forever.

wow. life. what a confusing thing. but i am in love with the beauty of it. i love the ironicy, the good with the bad, the amazing things that can happen if you let them.

my mindset and attitude has done a complete 180 in the past couple of months and I don't think I have ever been happier. It might just be hope that is keeping me so high but I have ( Read more... )

so tired that I couldn't even sleep
so sad that I couldn't even weep
how on earth did I get so jaded
life's memories seem so faded
everything seems cut and dry
day and night, earth and sky
somehow I just don't believe it

I don't need this, I know I don't. I'm not gonna let myself put me through the agony and pain it causes. As selfish as it sounds, I'm going to worry about my life, health, and what I need to get done and not make an effort to have you in it. All it does in the end is tear me down more. And that doesn't mean I don't think you should do the same. I'm ( Read more... )

I can hardly stand up ( Read more... )

could I have ever thought it would end? Yesterday I was in PE crying beacuse my side hurt so bad. It felt like I was getting stabbed. I've gotten enough surgeries to know when something is bad compared to me just being a pansy. So I went to the doctors. He had me go get an ultra sound. Turns out I have a cyst on my right ovarie ( Read more... )

I took a walk around the world to ease my toubled mind ( Read more... )

i spoke too soon ( Read more... )